There has been a slight surge in traffic to this blog in the last couple of days, specifically with regards to my many Twitter suspensions. A cursory glance at the news joined the dots for me; Twitter had suspended Ralf Little for spreading disinformation but the blue ticks kicked off and he was reinstated 4 hours later. Oh, how the other half live.
I read back some of my posts and away from the cesspit that is Twitter and perhaps slightly rejuvenated in the absence of all those monsters, and as a result, more centered, I felt differently about the things I’d said (although I have no regrets). In this post, my offending tweet is altogether awful, without context, it makes me cringe and yet I wrote it with the best of intentions. I wanted my attackers to see what it felt like to be targeted themselves and in exactly the same way. This is just how I deal with the world around me, when a dog bit me once, I bit it right back. As a child victim of violence I was barely 10 the first time I retaliated. It was empowering and made me a survivor.
What people took away from my activism was that it was actually I who was the real racist, because unconscious bias minimises attacks against me but amplifies my retaliations and in the case of Twitter, helps maintain existing inequalities with its inconsistent guidelines, no doubt moderated by chan styled white supremacist incels. Ralf thinks it’s a bit conspiracy nut to assume someone might have maliciously locked him out of his account to protect coercive power but I disagree, this is and has always been Twitter’s M.O, they just didn’t care when it happened to us.
Twitter doesn’t care about what’s fair and right, it has always been skewed in favour of power. The more power you have the longer it takes for this to become apparent. Ralf Little has a lot more power than I do. When I was at my most vocal 6 years ago Ralf and Co were directly opposed to what we were asking. I don’t mean to single Ralf out, but consider James O’Brien’s impassioned plea on his behalf. He would NEVER do this for someone who wasn’t white and immensely privileged, he would just assume we deserved it. This is the same James O Brien who revoked his sympathy for Grenfell residents as they worked their way through the Kubler Ross model.
You can’t be shocked at this stage, fellas, this is a world of your making. You thought we were liars and fantasists and trouble makers and attention seekers but never once a comrade worthy of empathy. We challenged YOUR power, because we know it has enabled fascism in the past, the mainstream media is a tool for the establishment to normalise bigotry and encourage violence and it worked. Now we’ve reached the inevitable conclusion and people are shocked and filled with unease? Shame you didn’t feel that way in 2013.
“Free speech!” they all cried as a justification for their bigoted views yet turned their backs when our speech was curbed.
They came for us first, never forget that, and you said we were stupid and wrong. What’s your excuse?