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OPEN CALL TO EMPLOYEES OF BRAVE SOFTWARE

(This piece is a collective statement from various victims and resistors of cyberbullies, stalkers and potential mass shooters Kiwi Farms and their cult leader Joshua Conner Moon. Further down there is a section on how you can help, whether you are directly impacted or not)

We call upon employees of Brave Software to cease employment with Brave Software and Brendan Eich and to tell Brave Software and Brendan Eich to stop enabling neo-Nazi white supremacist pedophile Joshua Conner Moon and his neo-Nazi white supremacist cyberbullying website Kiwi Farms via his neo-Nazi white supremacist cyberbullying podcast Mad at the Internet.  Brendan Eich and Brave Software have ignored many messages apprising them of the circumstances and have chosen to disregard the piles of evidence we have sent their way.

Mad at the Internet is a podcast of Kiwi Farms and Joshua Conner Moon.  Mad at the Internet bullies people being bullied on Kiwi Farms.

Mad at the Internet, Kiwi Farms, and Joshua Conner Moon are violating the terms of service for Brave Software by inciting violence.  Joshua Moon has made a mass killing and mass rape threat, promoted violence against women, Jews, and Muslims, and incited five people to commit suicide by cyberbullying them, then celebrating the suicides and assigning bonus points for each suicide.  On Kiwi Farms, Joshua Moon wrote that if he had an autistic son, “it” would be quickly dead.  However, Brave Software and Brendan Eich still haven’t cancelled the account for Mad at the Internet, the cyberbullying podcast of Joshua Conner Moon.

Our previous appeals to Brendan Eich and Brave Software:

Brave or Enablers of Nazis?

Brave Software Cashing in on Our Misery

An Open Letter to Brendan Eich

Spotlight Newspaper

Why are employees of Brave Software working for garbage like Brendan Eich?

Most Recent Dossier on Kiwi Farms

Joshua Conner Moon, son of John Moon and Candice Lynn Potter (a.k.a. Candy Potter), is running a notorious neo-Nazi, white supremacist hate group and cyberbullying website called Kiwi Farms.  Kiwi Farms targets disabled people, especially people with autism, transgendered, Jews, Muslims, black people, Hispanics, vulnerable people, highly accomplished people, and other minorities.  Kiwi Farms has ruined the lives of countless people with defamation and cyberbullying.  Kiwi Farms had a forum called “Brown Town” in which they expressed their hatred for black people.  Joshua Moon (a.k.a. Joshua Conner Moon and Josh Moon) called for the genocide of Muslims and solicited fingers of Jews for necklaces.  Joshua Conner Moon uses BitChute, which is owned and operated by Ray Vahey, for Kiwi Farms videos to cyberbully people already being cyberbullied on his Kiwi Farms website.

Joshua Conner Moon lives with his grandparents Linda Cherry Potter and William Anthony Potter for free while cyberbullying people. 

KIWI FARMS HAS BEEN THE HOME OF A MASS MURDERER AND AN ATTEMPTED MASS MURDERER.

Kiwi Farms user William Atchison committed school shootings in which he shot two Hispanic kids and himself.

Kiwi Farms user Lindsay Kanittha Souvannarath attempted a mass murder at a mall.

Kiwi Farms has been promoting violence against different minorities. 

KIWI FARMS AND JOSHUA MOON HAVE BULLIED FIVE DIFFERENT PEOPLE INTO COMMITTING SUICIDE.

Kiwi Farms had about 200 web pages bullying a teenage girl named Julie Terryberry and she committed suicide:

Julie Terryberry committed suicide after Kiwi Farms bullying

Now Kiwi Farms is proud of  causing this suicide and brags about it.

A second Kiwi Farms victim named Chloe Sagal committed suicide after being relentlessly cyberbullied on Kiwi Farms.

Transphobic Bullying of Chloe Sagal

Suicide following acts of cyber-bullying

Game Developer Takes Her Own Life

Self immolation of Chloe Sagal

Kiwi Farms caused an individual named Chance Carmichael to commit suicide by cyberbullying him.  Kiwi Farms celebrated this suicide.

Kiwi Farms caused an individual named Nicholas McCrary to commit suicide.  Kiwi Farms celebrated this suicide too.

After causing four suicides, Joshua Conner Moon proudly posted a kill count on his Kiwi Farms website, which suggests that Joshua Moon is trying to cause as many suicides as possible.

Kiwi Farms caused an individual named Desmond Amofah AKA Etika to commit suicide.

Kiwi Farms also caused a suicide attempt.

HOW YOU CAN HELP

Report Moon and his forums/podcasts to the FBI, by filling out this form to file a criminal complaint against Moon for violating U.S. Code Section 2261, for information click here

For proof of threats Moon has made, you can attach this link. The authorities have made hundreds of arrests in recent weeks of potential shooters who have threatened mass violence. Why is Joshua Conner Moon any different? 

According to News.com.au, Australia’s number one news website which reaches over 9.5 million Australians, “Before he founded Kiwi Farms, Moon was sacked as an administrator for 8chan for allegedly promoting paedophilia. He is notorious for his online stalking and harassment campaigns, which have featured threats to “rape, murder and dismember” his mainly female victims.  In 2016, Moon was linked to a series of online threats to harm children in Florida, where he shares a home with his mother, forcing dozens of schools into lockdown.”

Archive

See the following articles on Joshua Conner Moon and his promotion of the Christchurch terrorist attack:

news.com.au

Daily Mail

zerohedge.com

stuff.co.nz

msn.com

Even Hatreon, which allowed funding for white supremacist hate groups, found Kiwi Farms too vile to allow on its website.  PayPal, Uphold, Authorize.Net, Mastercard, Visa, Patreon, and Hatreon banned Kiwi Farms from using their services for donations. Google banned Kiwi Farms from using its banner ads service. RedBubble banned Kiwi Farms from selling merchandise on the RedBubble website. Bitcoin mining syndicates banned Kiwi Farms from using their services to raise money.  VK, Stream.me, DLive.tv, and YouTube banned Kiwi Farms and Joshua Conner Moon from posting videos to cyberbully people already being cyberbullied on the Kiwi Farms website. Why should Brave Software be any different? Or BitChute for that matter? How are they above the law and standards on decency?

Kiwi Farms is owned and operated by Joshua Conner Moon a.k.a. Joshua Moon a.k.a. Josh Moon. This is Joshua Conner Moon a.k.a. Joshua Moon a.k.a. Josh Moon, owner of 1776 Solutions, LLC doing business as 1776 Hosting, in a nutshell:

– Joshua Conner Moon a.k.a. Joshua Moon a.k.a. Josh Moon runs and owns a neo-Nazi white supremacist cyberbullying website that bullies over 1800 people.

– Julie Terryberry committed suicide after being bullied with a 192 page thread on the cyberbullying website of Joshua Conner Moon a.k.a. Joshua Moon a.k.a. Josh Moon.

– Chloe Sagal committed suicide after being bullied on the cyberbullying website of Joshua Conner Moon a.k.a. Joshua Moon a.k.a. Josh Moon.

– Another victim attempted suicide after being bullied on the cyberbullying website of Joshua Conner Moon a.k.a. Joshua Moon a.k.a. Josh Moon.

– Chance Carmichael committed suicide after being bulled on the cyberbullying website of Joshua Conner Moon a.k.a. Joshua Moon a.k.a. Josh Moon.

– Nicholas McCrary committed suicide after being bulled on the cyberbullying website of Joshua Conner Moon a.k.a. Joshua Moon a.k.a. Josh Moon.

– After causing four suicides, Joshua Conner Moon proudly posted a kill count on his Kiwi Farms website, which indicates that Joshua Moon is trying to cause as many suicides as possible.

– Desmond Amofah AKA Etika committed suicide after being bulled on the cyberbullying website of Joshua Conner Moon a.k.a. Joshua Moon a.k.a. Josh Moon.

– Joshua Conner Moon a.k.a. Joshua Moon a.k.a. Josh Moon promoted violence against women, Jews and Muslims.

– Joshua Conner Moon a.k.a. Joshua Moon a.k.a. Josh Moon said Muslims need a “good genocide.”

– Joshua Conner Moon a.k.a. Joshua Moon a.k.a. Josh Moon asked for Jewish people’s fingers to be cut off.

– Joshua Conner Moon a.k.a. Joshua Moon a.k.a. Josh Moon asked a Jewish man if he had spare fingers or toes for a necklace.

– Joshua Conner Moon a.k.a. Joshua Moon a.k.a. Josh Moonn denied the number of people killed in the Holocaust.

– Joshua Conner Moon a.k.a. Joshua Moon a.k.a. Josh Moon hosted fantasy fiction on child rape.

– Joshua Conner Moon a.k.a. Joshua Moon a.k.a. Josh Moon admitted a sexual interest in young boys.

– Joshua Conner Moon a.k.a. Joshua Moon a.k.a. Josh Moon posted emails from a web hosting company saying it was terminating his service for hosting child pornography.

– Joshua Conner Moon a.k.a. Joshua Moon a.k.a. Josh Moon defended bestiality.

– Joshua Conner Moon a.k.a. Joshua Moon a.k.a. Josh Moon said he wants to kill and rape as many people as he can.

– Joshua Conner Moon a.k.a. Joshua Moon a.k.a. Josh Moon said he would rape and mutilate a young girl and shoot her dad after she rejected him.

– Joshua Conner Moon a.k.a. Joshua Moon a.k.a. Josh Moon said he wants to kill his mother.

– Joshua Conner Moon a.k.a. Joshua Moon a.k.a. Josh Moon publicly ridiculed his mother.

– Joshua Conner Moon a.k.a. Joshua Moon a.k.a. Josh Moon used Nazi avatars.

– Joshua Conner Moon a.k.a. Joshua Moon a.k.a. Josh Moon glorified Adolf Hitler.

– Joshua Conner Moon a.k.a. Joshua Moon a.k.a. Josh Moon celebrated a terrorist attack against people protesting a white supremacy rally in Charlottesville, Virginia, USA.

These are some evil quotes by Joshua Moon, owner of 1776 Solutions, LLC doing business as 1776 Hosting:

Here is Joshua Conner Moon talking about viewing child porn:

8:58 AM - Joshua: God I feel so guilty about the CP
8:58 AM - Joshua: I wish it didn't turn me on to see that shit
8:59 AM - Joshua: It's not just regular child porn either, it's hurtcore now
8:59 AM - Joshua: I just like to see children suffer 😦
8:59 AM - Joshua: Oh well, no point in thinking about it too much
8:59 AM - Joshua: Time to find some more, lol!

Joshua Moon is an actual incel who said he wanted to mutilate Clara Lovett after being rejected by her.

Here a minor girl named Clara Lovett (userid Stocking) described Joshua Conner Moon’s reaction as follows after she refused to give him her address:  “I remember after he found out my last name, he said that he’d show up to my house while I was at school, shoot my dad, and wait for me to get home. Then he’d subdue me, cut off each individual digit with a knife heated in hot grease so that it’d cauterize as it cut and I wouldn’t bleed out. Then he’d cut off my clitoris and my labia, and then rape my ass until I shat myself. Then he’d just leave me to starve to death or something once all my appendages and my genitals were sliced off and he’d beaten me sufficiently.”

Here is Joshua Conner Moon saying he wants to rape and kill as many people as he can to Clara Lovett (userid Stocking)

4:52 AM – Joshua: I swear to god I want to kill and rape as many people as I can

4:52 AM – Joshua: before getting gunned down by SWAT

4:52 AM – Joshua: That needs to be my life aspiration

4:52 AM – Joshua: You stupid fucking cunts need to suffer

4:52 AM – Joshua: All living things with a vagina

Here is a conversation in which Joshua Moon expressed his pedophile tendencies:

(8:11 AM) Joshua:   Alright, time to jerk off to some neko shota.

(8:11 AM) Joshua:   Yeah, I’m fucked up. I know 😦

(8:11 AM) Joshua:   brb.

(8:13 AM) Colten v3.5:   0-0

(8:13 AM) Colten v3.5:   Wait

(8:13 AM) Colten v3.5:   I thought you hated furries

(8:13 AM) Joshua:   Neko =/= Furry.

(8:13 AM) Colten v3.5:   I just googled it

(8:13 AM) Colten v3.5:   It was a half cat half boy

(8:14 AM) Joshua:   A single cat abindage is not equivilant to a dog with some human features.

(8:14 AM) Joshua:   And that’s not why I hate furries.

(8:14 AM) Colten v3.5:   http://www.nekoshota.com/indexshota.jpg

(8:14 AM) Colten v3.5:   Also

(8:14 AM) Colten v3.5:   They are all little boys 0-0

(8:14 AM) Joshua:   Hence the word Shota.

(8:15 AM) Colten v3.5:   Yes

(8:15 AM) Joshua:   You need to learn your lingo.

(8:15 AM) Colten v3.5:   But a boy jacking off to a boy?

(8:15 AM) Joshua:   Regular doesn’t cut it anymore.

(8:15 AM) Joshua:   I drench my sorrows in masturbation so often that it becomes too hard to get off to heterosexual intercoruse for the sole purpose of reproduction.

(8:15 AM) Joshua:   You need to expand your pornographic interests if you do it too often.

(8:16 AM) Colten v3.5:   Oh ok, so Ill go over to /me/ and start jerking off

(8:16 AM) Colten v3.5:   */men/

(8:16 AM) Joshua:   I’ve done iit

(8:16 AM) Colten v3.5:   0_0

Here is Joshua Conner Moon wishing death on a baby:

@ Null – Mon Mar 25, 2013 6:25 pm

I fucking hate my friend’s sister’s baby.
@ Null – Mon Mar 25, 2013 6:25 pm
It’s a fucking cunt.
@ Null – Mon Mar 25, 2013 6:25 pm
It just sits there and glares at me
@ Null – Mon Mar 25, 2013 6:25 pm
It cries 24/7
@ Null – Mon Mar 25, 2013 6:25 pm
It’s woken me up every day since I got here
@ Null – Mon Mar 25, 2013 6:25 pm
I hope it gets SIDS

Joshua Moon once stated, “Muslims need a good genocide.” 

This was archived at https://archive.fo/GZoas

Joshua Moon once stated, “Cut off Jew fingers.” 

This was archived at https://archive.fo/Pbnlx

Joshua Moon once asked a Jewish reporter, “Sir, I don’t mean to be a bother, but would you happen to have any extra fingers left for my necklace?  Toes maybe?” 

This was archived at https://archive.fo/w9o5o

Joshua Conner Moon said Nazism is the best form of government.

Joshua Moon posted this disturbing statement on Kiwi Farms:

”I have begged my mother and my therapist to sleep with me out of desperation”

Here’s a podcast analyzing the pedophilia promotion of Joshua Conner Moon.

Despite mocking transgender people on Kiwi Farms, Joshua Conner Moon has a transgender romantic partner.

Joshua Moon (a.k.a. Joshua Conner Moon and Josh Moon), owner of 1776 Solutions, LLC doing business as 1776 Hosting, and Candy Potter (a.k.a. Candice Lynn Potter and Candice Potter) are the subjects of much scorn on the Internet.  Following are some articles fully or partially dealing with Joshua Moon (a.k.a. Joshua Conner Moon and Josh Moon), Candy Potter (a.k.a. Candice Lynn Potter and Candice Potter), and Kiwi Farms:

Rational Wiki

“Candice Lynn Potter found to be a member of Kiwi Farms”

Candice Lynn Potter found to be a member of Kiwi Farms

Candice Potter arrest record

http://news.crocels.com/news/10010/joshua-conner-moon-kiwi-farms-shutdown/

“Candy Potter defends son from harassment victim”

“Meet the cyberbullies of Kiwi Farms”

Joshua Moon calls for genocide of Muslims and solicits fingers of Jews for necklace

“Kiwi Farms, the Web’s Biggest Community of Stalkers”

Julie Terryberry committed suicide after Kiwi Farms bullying

“Cyber-bullying website hit by Google AdSense ban“

“Cyberbullying platform’s PayPal account shutdown”

“KiwiFarms host ‘concealed contact information’”

“Joshua Conner Moon’s Kiwi Farms website shut down”

John Moon and Candy Potter (also known as Candice Lynn Potter and Candice Potter) have not stopped their son, Joshua Moon (also known as Joshua Conner Moon and Josh Moon), from operating this hate group.  Candy Potter allowed him to continue living with her while operating this cyberbullying group.  When contacted about Joshua Conner Moon and Kiwi Farms by numerous people who were cyberbullied and defamed, Candy Potter (also known as Candice Lynn Potter and Candice Potter) just hangs up.

Candy Potter (also known as Candice Lynn Potter and Candice Potter) had her own profile on Kiwi Farms.  After Crocels News reported on the profile of Candy Potter (also known as Candice Lynn Potter and Candice Potter) at

Candice Lynn Potter found to be a member of Kiwi Farms

Joshua Moon deleted the profile, but it was archived

Information on Kiwi Farms co-administrator Andrew Auernheimer:

Why is a neo-Nazi and white supremacist like Andrew Auernheimer aka Andrew Alan Escher Auernheimer buddies with and sharing an apartment with an admitted homosexual pedophile like Joshua Conner Moon?   Joshua Moon even had a transsexual boyfriend.  Joshua Moon said that he lives with Andrew Auernheimer now.  Why would Andrew Auernheimer invite Joshua Moon to live with him?  Andrew Auernheimer has native American and Jewish heritage, but is still a neo-Nazi white supremacist.  .  Andrew Auernheimer is a hypocrite.  Andrew Auernheimer has two adopted black brothers, but is still a neo-Nazi white supremacist.  Andrew Auernheimer became a neo-nazi white supremacist after his parents adopted two black kids and Andrew Auernheimer felt neglected by his parents.  You can read about kiwi farmer Andrew Auernheimer here:

SPLC Centre

Newsweek

The Independent

The Atlantic

Wired

Andrew Auernheimer said, “If you don’t let us dissent peacefully, then our only option is to murder you. To kill your children. To kill your whole families. There is only one thing absent free speech that we can do to express our dissent and that’s to slaughter you like dogs, and you’re gonna have it coming and your children will deserve to die.”

Below are the employees of Brave Software.  Once again, we call upon employees of Brave Software to quit working for Brave Software and Brendan Eich and tell Brave Software and Brendan Eich to stop contributing money to neo-Nazi white supremacist pedophile Joshua Conner Moon and his neo-Nazi white supremacist cyberbullying website Kiwi Farms through his neo-Nazi white supremacist cyberbullying podcast Mad at the Internet. 

We noticed Brave Software had taken down the contacts page for its staff but they were too late. This tells us they are aware of the resistance to Kiwi Farms and have actually read all the correspondence they have failed to respond to.


Brendan Eich – Founder & CEO

Brian Bondy – Founder & CTO

Yan Zh – Chief Information Security Officer

Ben Livshit – Chief Scientist

David Temkin – Chief Product Officer

Brian Brown – Chief Business Officer

Brad Richter – Head of Design

Catherine Corre – Head of Communications

Holli Bohren – CFO

Johnny Ryan – Chief Policy & Industry Relations Officer

Brian Johnson – Principal Engineer

Brian Clifton – Software Eng Manager

Anthony Tseng – Sr Software Engineer

Sriram Venkataram – QA and Customer Support

Marshall Rose – Principal Engineer

Jon Sampson – Sr Developer Relations

Sergey Zhukovsky – Sr Software Engineer

Ryan Watson – IT & Operations Manager

Cezar Augusto – Sr Software Engineer

Luke Mulks – Director (Business Development)

Alex Wykoff – Product Manager (Brave Rewards)

James Mudgett – Principal Product Designer (Mobile)

Nejc Zdovc – Sr Software Engineer

Joel Reis – Sr Software Engineer

Lauren Wagner – Software QA

Kamil Jozwiak – QA Lead

Jenn Rhim – Director of UX Design

Peter Snyder – Privacy Researcher

Tom Lowenthal – Privacy & Security Product Manager

Chris Nguyen – Technical Operations Coordinator

Jocelyn Liu – Sr Software Engineer

Kevin Lawler – Sr Software Engineer

Jimmy Secretan – VP of Services & Operations

Artem Samoilenko – Sr Software Engineer

Alexey Barabash – Sr Software Engineer

Geeta Sarvadnya – QA & Support

Asad Syed – IT Support Engineer

Matt Bacchi – Sr DevOps Engineer

Jennie – BAT Community Manager

AmirSaber Sharifi – Sr Software Engineer

Michael McLaughlin – Sr Software Engineer

Nick von Pentz – Sr Software Engineer

Michal Buczek – Sr iOS Engineer

Taylor Campbell – Tor Engineer

Aubrey Keus – Sr Software Engineer

Emerick Rogul – Sr Software Engineer

Bartlomiej Lechowski – QA Engineer

Jan Piotrowski – Business Development

Pranjal Jumde – Sr Security Engineer

Pete Miller – Sr Software Engineer

Dimitrios Athanasakis – Machine Learning Researcher

Jason Sadler – Sr Software Engineer

Matt Evangelista – User Support Engineer

Ryan Lanese – Sr Software Engineer

Mandar Shinde – BAT Ecosystem Product Lead

Ross Moody – Design System Lead

Rafael Ebron – Product Manager (Brave Browser)

Hamed Haddadi – Visiting Professor

Max Karolinskiy – Sr Software Engineer

Dan Lipeles – Software Engineer

Karen Liu – Sr Product Designer

Scott Locklin – Blockchain / Machine Learning

Des Martin – Business Development & Community

Panagiotis Papadopoulos – Security Researcher

Mark Pilgrim – Sr Software Engineer

Dr. Antonio Nappa – Security Researcher

Terry Mancey – Senior Developer

Andrius Aucinas – Performance Researcher

Mihai Plesa – DevOps

Adrian Legardy – IT Support Engineer

Cory McDonald – Software Engineer

Ben Kero – Senior Devops Engineer

George Dregalo – Senior Software Engineer

François Marier – Senior Security Engineer

Matteo Varvello – Performance Researcher

Jan Seidl – Senior Infrastructure Security Engineer

Clayton Hartford – Brave Ads, Rewards & Creator Partnerships

Dan Murphy – Brave Ads Support Specialist

There has to be at least one decent person among your ranks, someone with a conscience.

I have been victimised

Just deactivated my Twitter account again. I made a remark about how I was targeted with racist spam in a reaction to the spamming of various women online for the last few hours and very soon after I started getting them again. That’s all I know really.

I’ve deactivated not because I want to but because I’ve been told that’s the way to prove you’re intimidated by racists and stalkers and misogynists who want women off the internet. There’s no shame for me in admitting I’ve hit my racial slur limit for the time being. I want to function as humans do, obviously, without the echoes haunting me. I want to be a good friend and a good sister and aunt and carer for my animals. Being abused day in day out with no recourse to safety makes it impossible for me to nurture these relationships because hyper vigilance is exhausting and to be as honest as I can, my real life is in crisis for many reasons right now.

I’m already confined to these four walls for probably 6 days a week, only then stepping out with other people but that’s ok, I don’t want to be out there with the rest of you. Twitter has been invaluable for me to get my message out there and I feel like I need to remind people what that message is and always has been and ask why it is that I am the one who has to leave?

I want to end patriarchal violence. I want you to question every little thing you do and how it impacts on the people around you. I’m not talking to the depraved ones who get off on suffering, I’m sorry they weren’t shown empathy but everyone has a sliding doors moment, where they make the decision to protect themselves or do the right thing (guess which one I chose?) and these sickos chose themselves cos that’s all that matters to them. They can all rot in hell.

The police said there was nothing they could do for me and the person(s) targeting me knows this. They’ve been coming back to mock me, repeatedly victimising me and the cops are loving it (see last blog post’s comments). Well, you’ve got your victim now. Thank you for leaving me in a position where I am without the support I need from people who, ironically, think about others first instead of this bullshit self-serving ‘identity politics’ thing they’ve tarred us with. It’s never been about the self but humbling ourselves and recognising how we have more than others and to be grateful for that and not use it to whip oppressed people (for now we will whip you back). These people are not even people in my mind, they’re demonic. They exist only to goad and cause suffering. I want them all to die painfully without anyone there to support them, have them face their achievements on their deathbeds. Let them suffer the same way, show them the same lack of compassion. You think I was born feeling this way about people, cold and malicious, or did I learn it from the degenerates who taught me that was just the way of the world?

I am not sure how far away I am from giving everything up for good. I know that I can’t and yet, every time I am targeted in this way, by the rich and famous and political (and the mere plebs) I feel myself get a step closer. This world does not care about me so why should I care about it?

Twitter, I’m not going to report to you cos sometimes it’s just not possible. I don’t know who is harassing me and even if I did, it’s not like you give a shit.

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Justice is for white people

This is the response I got from West Midlands police after I asked them to escalate the complaint to superiors. I called the police to help me. They didn’t help me. Instead they gave me a warning.

I knew when I was raped that I could not go to the police because they’d probably say I deserved it for inviting the rapists back. It doesn’t matter that they were just friends when I let them into my home and an entirely normal thing to do when you trust people (who are friends) but in the context of a rape investigation, it’s almost like the purpose of the police is to discredit victims, especially when they are female and almost certainly when they are not white.

The police don’t give a shit about non-white women; I knew this from my work. They don’t much care for white working class women either but they still have the edge over poor brown women. The police can communicate better with people who speak their language, not just spoken but also cultural and unspoken, in the way they’ve been taught to react to things, like, how to be a worthy victim. Whether they self-identify as racist or not, suggesting that non-white perpetrators of violence against women are entitled to that power and control because their religious beliefs are protected by law allegedly and then shrugging as if to say “what can you do with these savages?” IS racist because if they did a little research, picked up a book or two, they’d realise violence against any person who is not your physical match is forbidden. It is racism that allows these people to turn a blind eye and in some cases gleefully abandon vulnerable people because of their immigration status.  This is something I learnt through my work, that the police are inherently racist and sexist.

I don’t like the police. I don’t care if they don’t like me either. I just want to know why I spent my whole life believing racism was illegal and that this meant something could be done about it. Also I know how serious (also illegal) threats to kill are because of the work I have done in the past, yet the police expect me to believe they cannot do anything about the abuse I face because Twitter won’t do something for them. How did they make Twitter oblige when it was the blonde middle class Caroline Criado Perez with her media contacts who was being targeted? She was in all the papers, her face flustered from the stress of being a woman on the internet and we learnt she was clinically depressed from the ordeal. I have CPTSD. I am on medication for mental and physical disabilities. I often have thoughts around suicide and yet the police have dismissed the threats and abuse numerous people subjected to me, even though there was money missing from my bank account.

(TW threats/racism)

“I will slit your throat and hang you upside down bitch, don’t tempt me”

“People are going to hammer you”

“Please shut the fuck up or I will murder you”

“Please shut up you paki”

“If you don’t like Britain go back to your own country you ungrateful whore”

“…You stupid, laughable cry-baby cunt”

“Begging for money on your blog I see…typical Paki girl”

“Proof you can’t be friends with a Paki”

“I’m going to kill you”

“Hahaha you ugly little slag, lol”

“I’m gonna slice you up bitch”

“I’m gonna cut you up”

“Please just drown yourself now please. Still gonna kill you”

If saying “kill all men” is incitement to murder than what is this^ person doing to me? Or the various search terms actually telling me to kill myself? They’re not saying all people should do this, this is a direct threat aimed at me, Sam Ambreen (not all women of colour). No one else, just me. CPTSD makes you hyper vigilant because you feel like you’re going to die most of the time. In the balance of harm, how can West Midlands police have the audacity to follow up a refusal to support me with a warning that I am committing a criminal offence and that they don’t believe me or cannot defend me for saying a few words (regarding 4 billion strange men)?

I’m not sorry that I cannot play the right sort of victim for you. The police are notorious for their inconsistency when it comes to believing victims. If you didn’t fight back, why not, did you on some level enjoy it or give them the impression you were consenting? If you did fight back, well, you’re clearly not a victim and can take care of yourself. In fact now you’re the problem because you’re hostile and a loose cannon. Well, he’s the one with all the scratches on his face (self-defence is only an option if you’re white and middle class, as we reminded Criado Perez only a few days ago).

I cannot fight back; I must leave the internet if things are that bad otherwise I haven’t the right to complain. Helpful advice from the police who are definitely not trying to silence me, say because of my political beliefs and utter distrust of the police. I didn’t want to go to them; I was encouraged to do so by people on Twitter who were horrified at the stream of nastiness I was subjected to. I wasn’t confident they’d do anything but I did not expect to be reminded of how I may be breaking the law for reacting to abuses perpetrated against me.

I don’t want to be in this country. It’s not safe. There is no help here for people like me, only more violence in future. I have nothing positive to say about any of my experiences with the authorities (or the majority of white people). I get it ok, you don’t like me because I can see you’re looking down on me and I know that I’m above that so you do your best to punch down and push me into a corner where no one can hear me. This only means I will keep screaming until the opportunity presents itself to leave this living nightmare. I know my worth (and the law) and you don’t get to call it.

If I now wished global warming would hurry up and drown this tiny island, would you consider that incitement to an act of God?

Twitter Death Threats are Tasteful and Decent

Kill all men. 3 words that erased all the times I was raped, sexually assaulted and beaten by men. These 3 words justify the death threats against me. In saying these words, I have confirmed that I am just as bad as the entitled men and any report I make of abusive behaviour against me is invalid.

I have just finished speaking to the police who called to update me with regards numerous threats to kill and the reams of racist abuse I have been subjected to on Twitter. They advised that Twitter, being based in California refuse to provide British law enforcement officers with any information even in cases where there are threats to kill because their laws around taste and decency differ from ours. Apparently they only concede for serious crimes like murder (not threats to murder).

I want to know how the Metropolitan police were able to investigate the abuse aimed at Twitter activist Caroline Criado Perez (and Stella Creasy) and were able to convince Twitter that the words used to threaten her did breach taste and decency standards even though she is also in the UK (like me). I asked the officer who called me (from West Midlands Police) why this disparity between activists on Twitter when we’re all women receiving death threats and whether she could blame me for thinking it is rooted in structural racism? She maintained that she was just passing on the message from their techie guy and it had nothing to do with race, more that Twitter was refusing to comply. She was also confused because they said it was about protecting their users from opponents of free speech and that surely this protection should be extended to me too, also one of their users.

Why would it though? The internet is awash with rapists and their apologists, misogynists who fantasise about murdering and humiliating women (and probably do in their relationships) and the overall response has been amusing for them. Social networking sites like Facebook will delete an image of a woman breastfeeding a hungry baby because it breaches standards of taste and decency (and sets them apart as somehow enlightened – Darwin award please – among the mammals) yet raging racists like Britain First get a free pass. Murdering entitled scum from the states get a shrine devoted to worshiping male power. Twitter hasn’t responded to the two tickets I got from them acknowledging I’d made complaints regarding gendered abuse and DEATH THREATS but why would they?

In a world where 50 women have been murdered by men this year in this country alone, am I really surprised that gendered abuse is still being ignored by the men in power? The kind of world where the reaction to homicide perpetrated because male entitlement is one of praise and in support of male privilege, not condemnation of the kind of society that allows sick individuals like these to thrive. In a society where rape victims are asked what they did to provoke a rapist into raping them, am I surprised that the 3 words I have at my disposal to empower me when I’m feeling weak (but angry still) are considered equally harmful to the sexual abuse I have been subjected to my whole life (the experiences I have on twitter being an extension to a collage my brain has collated over the years)?

Of course I’m not. This doesn’t change the physiological effects of silencing and legitimisation of abuse has on me. I had a panic attack and had to cut the call short. This was after I explained that I would not be deleting my online profiles because I will not let them succeed in their campaigns to silence me. I won’t let them have the satisfaction and to insist I am complicit in abuse against me if I do not is victim blaming, nothing more or less. It’s not like I have a choice, I do the things I do so that the world is a safer place, one that I can be a part of. Unfortunately this whole incident has served to remind me that I can’t expect this and that attempts to change the status quo will be met with reinforcements from the oppressors.

I’ve advised the police I would like for this complaint to be escalated to their superiors and to find out how it was possible that 2 people were sent to prison for similar offences against a blonde woman.

I’ll let you know how that goes.