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Chelsea racists are a distraction from a much bigger problem

Another racist attack on a public transport system, another furore over the state of football today; except everyone seems to be ignoring the great big white elephant riding around on the circle line 7 days a week, 365 days of the year (despite the many ways in which we tell you it’s happening every hour of every day on Twitter, where you can all see it at any time).

Life as a person of colour living in a white world is hard (especially if you are a woman and battling sexism as well). We do not have the freedom/privilege to exist; we must navigate our days with much introspection and safety planning, so that we avoid bringing violence on ourselves. Already this is sounding like victim blaming and that’s because it is, our media and governments routinely advise victims on how to play it safe never once suggesting to the perpetrators they should stop or else face the long arm of the law (whether victims of race or rape). This is why it hurts more to see white people dominate a hashtag with their tales of shock at the state of football today, or their calls for action to ensure this never happens again.

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(damaging ramifications for football but white people ok to continue being racist)

It happened to me 2yrs ago and that was the last time I boarded a bus in the night. In fact shortly after that, with the increasing fascist demos and racist discourse from our rich and famous (google India Knight for the P word and Jeremy Clarkson for the N word, Dawkins for his Islamophobia and Cobra for their double standards) I stopped going out altogether. I may have some passing privilege in some parts of the UK but on the whole I’m not willing to take that risk or bother playing white identity bingo when I am freaking the fuck out already. What flavour of racist is this, I wonder? The sort that’ll forgive me my skin tone if I make enough shared cultural references? Or the sort that thinks all Tamils are Pakis, white being supreme? Any white face in a crowd could be capable of stabbing you, even as you absentmindedly do your food shop on a Sunday. They can shout white power at you as the life drains away and the propaganda channel won’t even call it terrorism! Just theories, attacks on people of colour, not actual lived experiences we’ve been trying to tell you about. Never mind that the white leftie press routinely shuts down any objection to their increasingly right wing ‘discussions’ on our lives (by shamelessly labelling it silencing), we are not permitted to even begin telling you our experiences of our mother’s cultures because we’re being forced to accept the white supremacist’s account of it. All it takes is one token person of colour to disprove your entire life story.

What do we, as people of colour, have to say about racism in the west? It’s rampant and escalating (because we feign shock and surprise at the odd incident, it’s left to propagate whilst we focus on ISIS, or forced marriage, or FGM, which in turn confirms the racism they already feel). The politicians and media have made it so, with their not so subtle manipulation of other white people they usually hate and look down upon. Surreal, huh? Laughable almost.  That’s white supremacy though, completely ignorant of the reality for the majority world.

Stop being shocked, white people, and start paying attention to us. Speaking for myself, I am not about to do to you what your empire did to us, and still does. I am asking you to challenge racism whenever you see it in the street (and the media) and call out your family members when they’re being cocks, whatever their justification for their hate (recession, snobbery, friendzoning) because excusing it the way you do, oh, they’re just working class, or unintelligent, or ignorant blah blah blah does nothing to address it but continues to perpetuate that kind of thinking.

It’s no one else’s fault if you’re a hateful, envious toad. We see you.

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Please tell me this is a joke

Look at the names on this list of signatories. How many of these has personally silenced me? Where was the list supporting me when 8chan drove me off the internet with rape and death threats, racist and sexist abuse? How dare a single one of these supposed ‘lefties’ bemoan ‘silencing of the individual’ when they enabled exactly that of me?

It reads like a who’s who of white power and their tokens. Yes, the one who said we’re just jealous we can’t write is also in there but I am ashamed to see Southall Black Sisters add their name to this list. I felt similarly when they polarised Muslims with their Je suis Charlie nonsense.

You’re no better than us, you’re simply the kind of token they want you to be. One that knows it’s place.

Of course none of you will actually read this because I am actually silenced. Shouting it out into the ether is just something I do for kicks.

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No, you’re the racist

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The way things have gone the last couple of years you could be forgiven for thinking I am the issue. I use the word white a lot and it has begun to sound like a slur in itself. I’m sure many people with white skin will stand by their belief it was all going so well till I opened my mouth but that’s bullshit and you know it. All I did was contribute to the movement that made it ok to talk about you the way you talk about us.  I am a champion for equality and whist the majority of the world suffers from a distinct lack of everything we take for granted in the west, this means sharing in their misery being as they are not permitted to share in your knowledge and material wealth. Not gonna do anything about the world in which so many people of colour are scorned for looking/speaking/thinking a little different? Well only fair we return the favour. White is not exempt from criticism or ridicule. In fact, white taught us how it was done.

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“You’re the racist, Sam”

Nah. Racism is not just about picking on people for the colour of their skin (or using the word ‘white’ unironically). It’s the perception that a group of people is inferior and therefore does not deserve access to resources which in turn justifies starving those people to death (for example). Take Churchill. Oh he provided good soundbites for white people who didn’t believe they were as important as him (perhaps as a result of all free thinking English sorts being summarily executed for speaking out against the medieval toffs and leaving behind the docile, easily manipulated underclass that jumps into action the second the ruling classes activate the kill the Pakis chip) but he also put 4 million to death by starvation, piping up only to ask if Gandhi was dead yet. What a spiffing nice chap eh?

No, what I am is not a racist. What I am is disappointed and fed up. I’m angry and disgusted. I do admit to feeling prejudice every time I see a white face the short walk from my front door into a waiting taxi. You see white people represent unchallenged violence and deception. I definitely do not trust the majority of white people. If you read up on enough history you won’t trust them either. They like to promise things in exchange for compliance and then they kill you. I am prejudiced but I do not have the power to discriminate and without that, you cannot be a bonafide racist (never mind the fact that all of my best friends are white). Racism is built on power and power allows for discrimination. When you are powerless, and even the poorest of white people have more power than non-whites, then you do not have the ability to manipulate perceptions. You do not call a single shot. Oh they’ll say you do, as they use their infinitely more powerful powers to berate and scapegoat you for all their shortcomings. They’ll say you’re a racist and that justifies an attack on your whole family, which they do in the knowledge that the white authorities will side with a white citizen no matter how deplorable or violent their attack on you. This is because white people do not see us as human. How can you empathise with an individual if you don’t even believe they feel things in the same way? I am convinced there is a connection between those assholes posing gleefully next to the carcasses of lions on safari and the kind of person who’ll justify genocide of indigenous peoples from an economic perspective. I’m sorry (not sorry) if this offends you but this is what white people do.

When I say white people are violent, it is because they are. When I say they are hypocrites, it is because they prove it again and again. If you find it difficult to understand where I’m coming then maybe breaking it down will help.

I do not have the power to refuse you a job or affect your prospects by manipulating public opinions of anyone who shares the colour of your skin.

I do not have the influence to encourage genocide of all white people (or men) in the way the architects (G8 governments) of #KillAllMuslims do.

I cannot access state support in my alleged intentions against the millions of white people I fear.

I cannot demand you identify yourself when you’re cruising around in your flash car at midnight cos you can’t sleep, or whatever.

I cannot say ‘white’ without a honky saying I’m racist.

Etc.

My words are such a threat they believe they are at risk of violence if I continue to garner support despite my using the the word ‘white’.  The reaction is so violent, so angry, white people fear you’re about to do to them what they did to you. They are so angry and violent because they believe you are capable of the same systematic monstering they subjected your ancestors to. They are still being violent and their fractured minds have justified it by labelling it survival.

It’s not survival; it’s a deadly virus, consuming all of the good it comes into contact with because ‘survival of the fittest’ means atrocity. Except I believe we’ve evolved past that and survival is no longer about being a selfish knucklehead but ensuring we do not take more than we need, from the planet and our brothers and sisters. It makes sense to maintain the life giving things by being respectful of that life force, in all its forms.

If we cannot do this, then none of us deserve to live.