Asian man knifed in terror attack by perpetrator shouting ‘white power’

An Asian man has been knifed whilst shopping at Tesco in the latest terror attack perpetrated by white supremacists. We know they were racist scum because they shouted ‘white power’ as they brutalised their victim. This is an unprecedented attack on a non-white citizen of Great Britain, racists don’t usually feel confident enough to shout their motives as they attempt murder and the use of the words ‘white power’ speaks for itself. Surely Cobra must convene at this stage?

Except they won’t, because like the attacker the people with the power to call Cobra share the same colour of skin as the terrorists and they are actually in power so they call the shots, and we’ve known through the course of our lifetimes, particularly after 9/11, white people don’t even think of us as human never mind victims of their race. There’s a shared delusion, a detachment from reality that we are all human (#alllivesmatter but only when you talk about black people’s lives) and we suffer the same, which means you cannot even reason with them.

I told you more than a year ago the path we were taking led to only one place and once on course the outcome is inevitable. ‘Tolerant’ non racist societies do not allow for violence against their ethnic minorities. They defend them with the words “I may not approve of what you say” not lie to any media piece who’ll listen that the issue is one of class and not race. Nobody listened but we have to be clear about the reasons why.

Our lefties are predominantly white. They may SAY they are not racist but that’s because they like to pretend race is only about the colour of your skin and not your socio-economic status compared to theirs and the history that brought you here (and what that means about their wealth and opportunities). If you think and act like them you get a little leeway, but god forbid you do anything that goes against their way of life. When white academics are bleating that race isn’t a feminist issue despite the chorus of voices protesting this travesty then you know they are a racist. Since when was it ok for white people to define racism and who is and isn’t allowed to feel terrorised for being who they are?

Some of the people think this is a religious war. There are many antitheists involved too. They say it’s about hating on antiquated belief systems that harm us all but then they’d attack Christians too, not forgetting the hundreds of other religions not dependent on a single sky god. Make no mistake, this is Great Britannia shitting a brick that the colonies are preparing to strike back so it’s getting nasty with its foreign subjects to remind ‘em who’s boss. It comes down to power and wealth, white people have enjoyed the privileges of other people’s wealth for centuries and they’re not in the mood to share. And that’s why the white lefties are modern day Nazis like the socialists before them in Germany. They don’t know hardship, only power and control and they didn’t like it when we got uppity, whether it was the white feminists of the New Statesman or the free thinking antitheist Dawkbros of the internet. They made this happen, allowed for the kind of environment where racism could flourish without challenge.

I told you so but you didn’t listen. Now you sit around idly, gaslighting us with your inadequate reporting of white terrorism as incidents framed with a ‘racial motive theory’ (cos ‘white power’ is an energy supplier). In fact all white people who’ve denied us, be they feminists, lefties, politicians, whatever; these last coupla years have been doing just this. Gaslighting makes the victim feel like they are going mad. It is perpetrated by sadistic sociopaths. Those are the people in charge of the country and shaping the future.

They want war and it will happen but only when they call it.

Not All Muslims

Holocaust is so last century 


“Could you all form a queue? Women and children first. No, you won’t be needing that, not where you’re going..” This is how it goes down doesn’t it? That’s what I remember from the films rated PG, obviously the grown up ones were a little less polite and more blatantly murderous.

I was 12 or thereabouts when I first learned of the Holocaust. I remember thinking “oh my God, they mean people like me” and banishing the thoughts from my head because it was too painful. It’s fine to visit places glorifying the war dead such as the Imperial War Museum when you’re a child growing up in your coloniser’s world and you’ve been brainwashed into thinking you need protection from the state (instead of constantly fending off attacks from the state) but to think of those people, young Anne Frank for example, as people who were helpless against their attackers in the same way you’d probably be.. It was easier to distance the self from those horrific events so far in the past they could never hurt us again. I had the same sharp attack of existentialism when I found I was a carrier for a genetic disease. Playing Holocaust Bingo has been a lifelong habit of mine but I had hoped we were past such barbarism.

#KillAllMuslims is trending worldwide. I’m sure that has a lot with America coming online but still. When I reported swathes of racist abuse to the police they cautioned me with legal action over my use of the political phrase ‘kill all men’. I could be committing a crime you see, with my intentions against 4 billion men. How are they supposed to know I’m only joking, or being sarcastic to highlight an important message or venting my frustration? I’m actually professing my feelings on the gendercide of 4 billion men right? Well, I might have had the potential to do that if there was already worldwide backing in my terrorist hate campaign against the menz but there wasn’t. Perhaps if I had a militia movement with its own uniform and everything I could understand their genuine concerns but no. I had none of the support there is for a Holocaust of Muslims which has been growing steadily for decades and it’s not that we haven’t tried to warn you; it’s that people just don’t care. Will the police be cautioning the thousands tweeting those words for terrorism? Course not.

It’s difficult to refrain from drawing comparisons to a violent past when the present mimics it so vividly. Most people won’t see it, because they’re too busy paying back over inflated mortgages and struggling to heat and eat so their empty stomachs will trump your right to life. If you look back at this time a century ago though, you’ll notice the worrying number of similarities. Perhaps you think we’re too evolved to go back to a time of such cruelty and lessons have been learnt, you can be a bigot without calls for gas chambers but I disagree. Human beings are just not that sophisticated or special. There are but a handful of stories with finite conclusions. We may live in a country that is traditionally a seat of power and therefore too precious to join in on a global war (Gorbachev called it) but I don’t think that’s true. We start wars, we don’t stand back and let the others have all the fun/claim glory and many of us have been battling this for a few years now whilst the majority of the mainly white middle classes have attacked us for pulling out race cards and serving self-interests.

Will I be able to look at my nephews faces now without being reminded of Sophie’s Choice? Shall I start writing a diary now so that future generations will know we objected at every opportunity? Which of my family members will I lose? Where can I access all of my money if I needed to? Cash machines only let you withdraw so much in a day. How many friends can I count on? Who’d be the best in a violent situation? How can I protect all my loved ones with this borked back? What if I had to run? Will the piece of paper calling me a threat to myself and others (for the purpose of sickness benefits) now serve as my own death warrant? Have I made myself an obvious target by calling you all out the last couple of years? Will there still be people calling me a lunatic for catastrophising actual violence against non-white people, that is fast coming to its natural conclusion? Where can I learn Krav Maga?  Who can I trust? If I wear a bikini all day every day, will that prove my non muslimness?

Am I going to die a horrible death? If it comes to that, is it better to go by one’s own hand?

If you know a Muslim, reach out your hands to them, today, tomorrow and every day from now on. They need you to make that connection. They need to know they are relatively safe in a sea of white faces. Be brave and challenge your own and remember not all of us who look Muslim are Muslim yet we are in danger of the same dehumanisation. Sikhs, Hindus, South Americans etc, we are all under attack. Don’t let the white supremacists divide conquer and rule. Let there be only racism and not racism. I hope we can avoid the millions who’ll die for the powerful few laughing at us all right now.


Gossip Girls and Boys

As loathe as I am to admit it, I sometimes feel a softness towards Pope Francis, possibly because he’s just a bit more PR friendly than the other two alive and poping in my lifetime. I am the last person to sing the praises of religious men but credit where it’s due, many seem enamoured by God’s latest rep on earth and the feet washing and regular soundbites we’re drip fed seem to show him in a not altogether bad light.

Except for today, today I’m a little bit annoyed at him using his platform to reinforce old stereotypes on gendered behaviour. The behaviour in question is so gendered in fact; you don’t have to mention who you’re talking about because it goes without saying. Gossip is a term used to describe the hushed words we have with one another when we are not permitted to just come right out with it. Y’see, women don’t have conversations or share information in order to protect each other (from gaslighting at the very least), no, they make things up and stir in some slander for personal kicks. So wicked and evil is this practice that god fearing men of yesteryear (as recently as the 19th century) were FORCED to contain the idly gossiping wench’s head in a contraption that ensured she could not move her tongue, for if she did, she could expect lacerations from the spikes/blades attached to the mouthpiece. Their heads were encaged to teach them a lesson for being ‘riotous’ and ‘troublesome’, by those men they probably called out for their shitty behaviour.

Pope Francis says the “terrorism of gossip” can “kill the reputations of our colleagues and brothers in cold blood”. What of our sisters, Popester? Also, is it not highly inappropriate to refer to it as ‘terrorism’?

“Pssst, I heard he’s got another woman and set of children on the go”

“Hey, did you hear about so and so? Yeah, he’s a bit dodgy around the kids; I’d stay home if I were you”

“You’ll never believe what I just heard.. Mr X is stealing from the church fund”

These are all examples of not gossip. They are the moments we snatch from the daily grind where we are performing mothers, sisters, daughters, pictures of obedience and gratitude. We hear of something that troubles us and we pass it on. Of course many don’t, the fear of men, and God, is too strong.

As a small child I was seen and not heard and grew up in a household where I witnessed repeatedly, the women being admonished (beaten/sworn at) for talking to each other about their feelings. I grew up feeling like I couldn’t speak and remained silenced until I could change my mind-set and start again (post breakdown). Now, as you all know, no one can shut me up.

I wish I’d gossiped about the holy man who taught me my beliefs and touched me in places I knew were wrong, then I could have explained the reasons for my bad moods and avoided the beatings I’d gotten for being surly. Had it been ok for me to speak to a teacher about the abuse I might not have run away at 15. When the man who groomed and then raped me forbade me from gossiping with my friends (one of whom was his own sister) that I was seeing him, I dutifully obliged. Four years he was able to keep me dangling, whilst he primed me for one of the most horrific incidents of my life. I wish I’d disobeyed him and shouted out what was happening to me from the rooftops. The only reason I didn’t was this intense all-consuming fear that a) no one would believe me and b) worse still, they’d say I had made it up only to tarnish the value of those pious men. Society would believe those men.

Their reputations remain intact, always. Our minds, on the other hand, are far more fragile. In a patriarchal system though, a worldly reputation is held in higher esteem by God’s chosen ones than the torturous ways in which our thinking and feeling is stifled, our spiritual selves trapped by the belief that as women we are inherently different and deserve the suffering we endure for terrorising all the good men with our loose tongues and morals.

I resent this Pope Francis, and all the other men. Stop cheating, raping, using and abusing women and we will have no need to speak of it. ‘Gossip’ is a symptom of the disease of patriarchal entitlement and power and control. It’s time we called it by its proper name; ‘honesty’.



Western (white) psychosis is a term I was confronted with recently, at a festival where much of the discussion was centred on white privilege and its effect on people in cities. It felt confrontational because of the many arguments I’ve heard against the labelling of bad people as mentally unwell. They’re not poorly, they’re just bastards. This I can appreciate, I wouldn’t want to inadvertently tar mentally ill people with all the nastiness in the world. I know plenty of disordered people and they’re mostly a nice bunch who wouldn’t hurt a fly. Their disorders are an appropriate reaction to their surroundings and they can heal, given the love and support it requires. No, white supremacists are just savage fuckers, driven by greed and power and control.

Then I thought about it a bit. “..a severe mental disorder in which thought and emotions are so impaired that contact is lost with external reality” and it seemed fitting. White people exist in a parallel dimension where they see nothing wrong with the ways they continue to control the lives of the very peoples they once slaughtered in their own native lands, for that is our reality. Non-white people didn’t come to these shores looking for trouble; they were either forcibly dragged over or else promised a pipe dream in exchange for the slaying of their forefathers and looting of all their supplies. How could this picture look different to anyone unless they had lost contact with reality? We are here because you made it happen.

Imagine being so detached from this that you fail to see the ways in white people haven’t changed, not a bit, not since the days of the ‘Raj’ or the American ‘Civil War’. Young black men slaughtered on the streets of London are justifiably murdered even when they are later cleared of any suspicion with actual evidence. The British legal system made the murder of non-whites legitimate even when they pose no risk, in case you missed that. His name was Mark Duggan and the police killed him but nobody was sent down. Heck, in America they have actual video footage of Eric Garner being slowly strangled to death but no indictment there either – apart from the black man who filmed the white man murdering the other black one.  Indicted for filming the unlawful killing of a civilian but the white dude literally gets away with murder.

If a white woman had been slain in the same manner as our sister in Colchester, Cobra woulda been on it but she was a Muslim (targeted for her clothing) and so, not much of a big deal.

It’s a bit rich negging at me with the age old gaslighting of divide rule and conquer, that I come from a land of savages and I’d just be a rapist’s wet dream back in the motherland when I was raped by a white dude whilst living over here. So they treat their women like that, white men must behave like utter shitlords around them too? What is it with white dudes and their fingers wondering over the modest dress of a woman, the very thing she is forced to wear, to prevent an odious tosser from trying it in the first place? Have white women become too much of a headache for you? I’ve heard white men extol the virtues of us exotic women over their white girls as being good little wimminz who cook for their men and understand what it means to be a real woman. White women think that us of too so it’s hardly surprising they treat us like children and insufferable tools of the patriarchy, to be excluded from feminist movements and erased from the historical narrative.

They actually think they’re better than us. They think they’re smarter, happier, healthier, more innovative and cultured, special little snowflakes who deserve everything they stole. Look at all the pretty things they’ve amassed, us savages wouldn’t have known what to do with all that booty. They say that the east is preparing to wage a religious war and good white Christians and atheists alike should bomb them to shit before they get a chance. They act as if this is the first war of its kind and choose to ignore the Crusades and every subsequent clash since. They somehow think a Judeo-Christian alliance is the way forward and will rid the world of the evil that is Islam not for one minute cringing at the historical inaccuracies in this argument.

A significant number of the white population is congratulating itself on the Torture Report this evening. They’re standing by the rape of ‘turruhrists’ detained without trial. They’re saying I deserve to be raped by the ‘turruhrists’ for challenging their depravity. In the same breath I am told that I am a cunt. Nowt psychotic about that, or is there? The incongruence between the rules we all live by in a society and the reality for the majority of people of colour is so stark that I am convinced that there is something in this white psychosis thing.

It is an understatement to say there is no grip on things here, that it’s a magical world of make believe they invent on the spot. They present us with the way they want to be seen, as somehow enlightened and civilised and worthy of the servitude they demand. Yet I see savages everywhere. From the shadows of a past steeped in cruelty at the hands of the British who promised them brotherhood and then slaughtered all their children and left the homeland in ruins (when they resisted evangelical Christianity) to the modern day concentration camps housing non-white prisoners of an imaginary war (I believe ISIS exists as I believed the Taliban did, just not for the reasons they say) where they routinely rape inmates and threaten to rape their mothers too, I cannot be more convinced that they are all in fact under some kind of mass delusion that is so ingrained it is a part of life they don’t question, and neither do we, in case they kill us for it.

They will rape us and murder us and bury us in unmarked graves as though we never existed. Yet somehow we’re the subhuman ones. It makes me wonder whether a heap of disorders are constructed in a way to make it appear as though the victim suffering the symptoms of hardship is in need of institutionalisation whilst the puppet masters are given a country to run. It is vital we note BME peoples are disproportionately at risk of mental health issues. I imagine destitution and being made to feel inhuman by your colonisers has a lot to do with it. The very same people creating institutions and models of mental health who seem to thrive in a system where so many are homeless and starving.

Make u think, no?


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Please find attached screenshots of abusive messages from IP

I’m not sure what you’re going to do with this information as nobody seems to care about this kind of thing, but I’m hoping we haven’t slipped too far down the rabbit hole just yet. It says to report abuse on this email and that’s what I’m doing.

Yours despairingly,


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TW: Mental health in pregnancy can kill

A woman lost her life and her baby did too. We don’t know why. All we can do is empathise and lie awake despairing at the world that allowed such a thing to happen. She left the hospital in slippers, no coat, odd considering it’s almost Christmas, an irregularity that would surely have made someone look up and notice something was terribly wrong. Nobody did though. She was allowed to leave the hospital with the baby wrapped in a few blankets. There was no proud dad by her side, with his chest puffed out like a pigeon, babe in arms, she didn’t roll out in a wheelchair. Nobody checked to see if she had ordered a taxi.

In saying all this I’m not revealing myself to be some kind of undercover nanny state advocate, I’m merely describing every single birth of a child I’ve had the privilege of being involved in, and even my own early induction (medical miscarriage). Especially my own experience being as it was mentally fucked up. Surely someone would have noticed the woman who didn’t look like all the others, one whose eyes are empty, can barely lift her head to see where she’s going. She might be dressed inappropriately for the weather, in hospital slippers minus the usual winter attire. If this wasn’t an immediate concern, then the baby wrapped only in blankets would have raised an eyebrow. It’s not like you can get out of a hospital very fast, there are so many nobs to pull and buttons to press to get anywhere, especially on a maternity ward, measures introduced to prevent people just strolling in and stealing babies. Nurses stations are usually by the doors, they had to have seen her.

Unless maternity services are so stretched no one has any time to see you as a person, just a number taking the total down, if only briefly. Where was the prenatal screening for depression and appropriate support if she needed it? Health professionals, in my experience, are usually on it from the second you meet them, how you must tell them if you’re feeling low, the sort of services they can refer you to and tend to be very sympathetic to the ‘baby blues’; all this at barely 10 weeks pregnant (in my experience and practically everyone I know).

Why didn’t somebody notice? We’ve heard all the judgments this past week, of women who abandon motherly love, how, even if it had been that bad she could have handed the baby in to someone, how selfish it was of her to leave the baby so callously and justice should be served. I have been praying (to something, not sure what) that she would be ‘ok’, though I feared not. It is heart-breaking that this mother and her baby died a death that could have been prevented. An alternate ending where she lives happily ever after, supported by all those she comes into contact with could have been her reality. I know because I have had that support and everyone did the right things and I lived.

This death doesn’t make sense to me. There are so many people in your face about keeping your foetus and to their exacting standards (no smoking, no drinking or evacuating) with no acknowledgment of the hell pregnancy plays on your mind and your body, and yet LITERALLY the second they’re born, they’re invisible. No more badgering mum to watch her eating habits or put on a coat and some shoes, or checking to see if you’ve put the nappy on properly, or teaching you how to breastfeed or bringing you painkillers, or a sandwich, cup of tea or toast. Or the millions of test they do on a baby when it’s first born.

Why didn’t anyone notice? Will ‘lessons’ be’ learnt’ on this occasion?


I believe ALL victims of racism

Well who would have thought it in a million years but an Eastenders actress, Linda Henry is facing trial for ‘allegations’ of racism. That’s right, a blonde cockney reject, probably better remembered for her performance in Bad Girls (whatever that’s worth), has been naughty enough to warrant an actual public trial to prove she has been guilty of this actual crime as postulated by law.

I reckon she’s a big fat racist y’know. I say this because I’ve a wedge of evidence supporting my ‘allegations’ of racism against a number of individuals but the police advised me instead to shut down my social networks and threatened me with criminal proceedings for a few words I said regarding all 4 billion men on the planet. Despite the facts, that racism is illegal and that as a victim I have the right to justice (allegedly) I wasn’t acknowledged in this respect. Ms Henry’s victim though, well, the police, CPS etc were convinced they were racially abused enough to warrant taking the case to trial. As anyone who has ever worked in any capacity in the criminal justice system knows, the authorities do not want their success rates affected by your tenuous case. They have to be absolutely certain a crime has been committed and they can prove it in a court of law or else they don’t bother.

So it is with this insider knowledge (both in the legal system and occupying a brown body) that I can say hand on heart, I believe them. I believe every single victim of racism who discloses they have been racially abused. I don’t believe in the race card. I think that was phrase coined by controlling whites to dismiss, deny, gaslight non-whites by discrediting their validity as humans struggling to survive in a white system.

Here’s a radical thought for you: All white people are a little bit racist at least because they continue to enjoy the spoils of empire whilst the rest of us are systematically dehumanised and it is only white people who have the power to change this. White people are ‘deeply offended’ at being labelled a racist but they do not consider it offensive when we are racially abused daily. Where is all the white outrage at the BBCs insistence on pushing the good old days of empire on us whenever it needs to fill up the schedule? Why have they refused to suspend Henry over the ‘allegations’? If one of their brown employees was suddenly suspected of terrorism without evidence would they be afforded the same grace? You’ll have to pardon my mock outrage at the state broadcaster’s blatant racism, but it’s worth noting they are the medium through which bigotry of various flavours is justified. Whether you’re a traveller or a Muslim, good ol’ Aunty Beeb will put the white population straight. Thousands of us are being spoken about as though we are less than human and our lives do not matter, that we can be carted back to the jungle if enough of the whites agree. If there truly were enough white abolitionists among us BBC HQ would be surrounded until they admitted their crimes against humanity.

I have been racially abused, manipulated and cast aside. I know how it feels to know your perpetrator is lying but they will be believed on account of the colour of their skin. This is why I will always believe victims of racism, just as I will always believe victims of sexual violence. Just because the rules are set up to favour those with white skin or male privilege, does not make it the truth because a white western judge or jury says so. Even if Henry is acquitted, it means nothing to me and many thousands more like me.

We’ve got your number, white people. If you look like a racist (white) you probably are.