Author: Sam Ambreen

Still get id'd. A million ideas. Not enough energy.

Information regarding Josh Moon

  • We are a small group of individuals who have been targeted by the nazi incel site, Kiwifarms, run by Joshua Moon. Law enforcement has been surprisingly slow on the uptake so we have done a lot of the work researching the perpetrators ourselves. We are not suggesting that anyone should break the law, or do anything for that matter, just that knowledge is power and that has been skewed in kiwifarm’s favour (up until now). This should go some way to redressing the balance. If he’s big enough to fling shit, he’s big enough to catch it. 

 

(Update: seems Nazis don’t like being doxed and have been writing to WordPress getting things redacted. I may not be allowed to host the info on this site but it still in my possession, free to whoever needs it.)

Joshua Conner Moon, son of John Moon and Candice Lynn Potter, is running a notorious neo-Nazi, white supremacist hate group and cyberbullying website called Kiwi Farms.  Kiwi Farms targets disabled people, particularly people with autism, gays, transgendered, Jews, Muslims, black people, Hispanics, vulnerable people, highly accomplished people, and other minorities.  Kiwi Farms has ruined the lives of countless people with defamation and cyberbullying.  Kiwi Farms had a forum called “Brown Town” in which they expressed their hatred for black people.  Joshua Moon (also known as Joshua Conner Moon and Josh Moon) called for the genocide of Muslims and solicited fingers of Jews for necklaces.

Kiwi Farms had about 200 webpages bullying a teenaged girl named Julie Terryberry and she committed suicide:

Julie Terryberry committed suicide after Kiwi Farms bullying

https://lolcow.wiki/wiki/Julie_Terryberry

Now Kiwi Farms is proud of  causing this suicide and brags about it.

A second Kiwi Farms victim named Chloe Sagal committed suicide after being ruthlessly cyberbullied on Kiwi Farms:

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-5876485/Brilliant-tortured-31-year-old-transgender-artist-set-fire.html

https://variety.com/2018/gaming/news/chloe-sagal-death-1202858068/

https://www.dailydot.com/irl/chloe-sagal-suicide-cyberbullying-harassment/

https://hornet.com/stories/chloe-sagal-transphobic-bullying/

https://www.bitfeed.co/page/processor-transgender-commits-suicide-after-having-suffered-acts-of-cyber-bullying-news

http://expressdigest.com/brilliant-but-tortured-31-year-old-transgender-artist-set-herself-on-fire/

https://blackchristiannews.com/2018/06/homosexual-transgender-artist-commits-suicide-by-setting-himself-on-fire-in-the-middle-of-a-portland-street-after-being-bullied-online/

http://www.shacknews.com/article/105806/game-developer-chloe-sagal-takes-her-own-life

https://www.dailydot.com/irl/chloe-sagal-suicide-cyberbullying-harassment/

https://www.oregonlive.com/portland/index.ssf/2018/06/woman_who_set_self_on_fire_in.html

Kiwi Farms has also caused another suicide attempt:

https://samambreen.wordpress.com/2018/06/23/end-kiwifarms-now/

Kiwi Farms user William Atchison committed a school shooting in which he shot two Hispanic kids and himself, as you can see here:

http://matthewhopkinsnews.com/?p=5538

Kiwi Farms has been promoting violence against different minorities.

Even Hatreon, which allowed funding for white supremacist hate groups, found Kiwi Farms too vile to allow on its website.  PayPal, Uphold, Mastercard, Visa, Patreon, and Hatreon banned Kiwi Farms from using their services for donations. Google banned Kiwi Farms from using its banner ads service. RedBubble banned Kiwi Farms from selling merchandise on the RedBubble website. Bitcoin mining syndicates banned Kiwi Farms from using their services to raise money.

Kiwi Farms is owned and operated by Joshua Conner Moon a.k.a. Joshua Moon a.k.a. Josh Moon. This is Joshua Conner Moon a.k.a. Joshua Moon a.k.a. Josh Moon in a nutshell:

– Joshua Conner Moon a.k.a. Joshua Moon a.k.a. Josh Moon runs and owns a neo-Nazi white supremacist cyberbullying website that bullies over 1700 people.

– The cyberbullying website of Joshua Conner Moon a.k.a. Joshua Moon a.k.a. Josh Moon bullied Julie Terryberry into committing suicide with a 192 page thread on her.

– Joshua Conner Moon a.k.a. Joshua Moon a.k.a. Josh Moon promoted violence against women, Jews and Muslims.

– Joshua Conner Moon a.k.a. Joshua Moon a.k.a. Josh Moon said Muslims need a “good genocide.”

– Joshua Conner Moon a.k.a. Joshua Moon a.k.a. Josh Moon asked for Jewish people’s fingers to be cut off.

– Joshua Conner Moon a.k.a. Joshua Moon a.k.a. Josh Moon asked a Jewish man if he had spare fingers or toes for a necklace.

– Joshua Conner Moon a.k.a. Joshua Moon a.k.a. Josh Moonn denied the number of people killed in the Holocaust.

– Joshua Conner Moon a.k.a. Joshua Moon a.k.a. Josh Moon hosted fantasy fiction on child rape.

– Joshua Conner Moon a.k.a. Joshua Moon a.k.a. Josh Moon admitted a sexual interest in young boys.

– Joshua Conner Moon a.k.a. Joshua Moon a.k.a. Josh Moon posted emails from a web hosting company saying it was terminating his service for hosting child pornography.

– Joshua Conner Moon a.k.a. Joshua Moon a.k.a. Josh Moon defended bestiality.

– Joshua Conner Moon a.k.a. Joshua Moon a.k.a. Josh Moon said he wants to kill and rape as many people as he can.

– Joshua Conner Moon a.k.a. Joshua Moon a.k.a. Josh Moon said he would rape and mutilate a young girl and shoot her dad after she rejected him.

– Joshua Conner Moon a.k.a. Joshua Moon a.k.a. Josh Moon said he wants to kill his mother.

– Joshua Conner Moon a.k.a. Joshua Moon a.k.a. Josh Moon publicly ridiculed his mother.

– Joshua Conner Moon a.k.a. Joshua Moon a.k.a. Josh Moon used Nazi avatars.

– Joshua Conner Moon a.k.a. Joshua Moon a.k.a. Josh Moon glorified Adolf Hitler.

– Joshua Conner Moon a.k.a. Joshua Moon a.k.a. Josh Moon celebrated a terrorist attack against people protesting a white supremacy rally in Charlottesville, Virginia, USA.

These are some evil Joshua Moon quotes:

Joshua Moon once stated, “Muslims need a good genocide.”

Joshua Moon once stated, “Cut off Jew fingers.”

Joshua Moon once asked a Jewish reporter, “Sir, I don’t mean to be a bother, but would you happen to have any extra fingers left for my necklace?  Toes maybe?”

Joshua Moon (a.k.a. Joshua Conner Moon and Josh Moon) and Candy Potter (a.k.a. Candice Lynn Potter and Candice Potter) are the subjects of much scorn on the Internet.  Following are some articles fully or partially dealing with Joshua Moon (a.k.a. Joshua Conner Moon and Josh Moon), Candy Potter (a.k.a. Candice Lynn Potter and Candice Potter), and Kiwi Farms:

“Candice Lynn Potter found to be a member of Kiwi Farms”

http://news.crocels.com/news/9976/candice-lynn-potter-kiwi-farms-profile/

Candice Potter arrest record

https://www.policearrests.com/arrests/candice_l_potter_id_1575829.html

http://www.findmugshots.com/arrests/candice_l_potter_id_1575829.html

http://candy-potter-candice-potter.blogspot.com/

http://candice-potter-candy-potter-pensacola.blogspot.com/

http://candy-potter-candice-potter-pensacola.blogspot.com/

“Joshua Conner Moon”

http://joshua-conner-moon.blogspot.com

Candice Potter fired from job

http://news.crocels.com/news/10010/joshua-conner-moon-kiwi-farms-shutdown/

“Candy Potter defends son from harassment victim”

http://news.crocels.com/news/9483/candy-potter-mom-of-joshua-conner-moon-defends-son/

“Meet the cyberbullies of Kiwi Farms”

http://base.crocels.com/learning-objects/4928/kiwifarms-cyberbullies/

Joshua Moon calls for genocide of Muslims and solicits fingers of Jews for necklace

http://matthewhopkinsnews.com/?p=4179

Arrest records of Candice Lynn Potter

http://matthewhopkinsnews.com/?p=3565

http://matthewhopkinsnews.com/?p=4019

“Kiwi Farms, the Web’s Biggest Community of Stalkers”

http://nymag.com/selectall/2016/07/kiwi-farms-the-webs-biggest-community-of-stalkers.html

Julie Terryberry committed suicide after Kiwi Farms bullying

https://lolcow.wiki/wiki/Julie_Terryberry

“Cyber-bullying website hit by Google AdSense ban“

http://news.crocels.com/news/9761/joshua-conner-moon-kiwifarms-google-adsense-ban/

“Cyberbullying platform’s PayPal account shutdown”

http://news.crocels.com/news/9438/kiwifarms-paypal-account-closed/

“KiwiFarms host ‘concealed contact information’”

http://news.crocels.com/news/9580/kiwifarms-joshua-conner-moon-lolcow-llc-hosted-by-frantech-solutions/

“Joshua Conner Moon’s Kiwi Farms website shut down”

http://news.crocels.com/news/9432/joshua-conner-moon-kiwifarms-kiwifar-ms-shutdown-by-montserrat/

John Moon and Candy Potter (also known as Candice Lynn Potter and Candice Potter) have not stopped their son, Joshua Moon (also known as Joshua Conner Moon and Josh Moon), from operating this hate group.  Candy Potter allowed him to continue living with her while operating this cyberbullying group.  When contacted about Joshua Conner Moon and Kiwi Farms by numerous people who were cyberbullied and defamed, Candy Potter (also known as Candice Lynn Potter and Candice Potter) just hangs up.

Candy Potter (also known as Candice Lynn Potter and Candice Potter) had her own profile on Kiwi Farms.  After Crocels News reported on the profile of Candy Potter (also known as Candice Lynn Potter and Candice Potter) at

http://news.crocels.com/news/9976/candice-lynn-potter-kiwi-farms-profile/

Joshua Moon deleted the profile, but it was archived at

http://archive.is/ytbkF

Kiwi Farms is a neo-Nazi forum that targets minorities for bullying.  Kiwi Farms likes to dox people (post personal information). Below is a taste of their own doxing.

Note:  We are not claiming that family members and relatives of cyberbullies on Kiwi Farms are also using or supporting Kiwi Farms.  We are not claiming that family members and relatives of cyberbullies on Kiwi Farms support the activities of the cyberbullies.

Kiwi Farms administrator Null is Joshua Conner Moon (also known as Joshua Moon and Josh Moon) of [Redacted]. His personal Facebook profile is at https://www.facebook.com/JoshMoon1992

Joshua Conner Moon lives with his mother Candice Lynn Potter (also known as Candice Potter and Candy Potter) at[Redacted].  Candice Potter’s phone numbers are [Redacted] and [Redacted].

Joshua Moon’s dad is John Kenneth Moon in Frostburg, Marlyand.

Joshua Moon’s uncle and Candice Lynn Potter’s brother is Tony Potter in Clarksville, Tennessee.  Tony Potter’s Facebook profile is at https://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=1467347393

Josh Moon’s aunt and Candice Potter’s sister-in-law is Vicky Pokorny Potter in Clarksville, Tennessee. You can reach Vicky Pokorny Potter’s mother at [Redacted]. Vicky Pokorny Potter’s personal Facebook profile is at https://www.facebook.com/vicky.p.potter:

Joshua Moon’s maternal grandmother and Candice Potter’s mother is Linda Cherry Potter at [Redacted].  You can reach Linda Cherry Potter at [Redacted] or [Redacted].

Josh Moon’s maternal grandfather and Candy Potter’s father is William Anthony Potter at [Redacted].  You can reach William Anthony Potter at [Redacted] or [Redacted].

Joshua Moon’s step-mother and John Moon’s wife is Palon Willoughby Moon.  Her Facebook account is at https://www.facebook.com/palon.willoughbymoon

Josh Moon’s half-brother and John Moon’s other son is Jeremy Moon.  Jeremy Moon’s Facebook profile is at https://www.facebook.com/jeremy.moon.75

Joshua Moon’s half-sister and John Moon’s daughter is Haley Mae Wiley of Houlton, Maine.  Haley Wiley’s Facebook profile is at https://www.facebook.com/haley.wiley1

Joshua Conner Moon’s other half-sister is Jennifer Moon.

Joshua Conner Moon’s half-brother and John Moon’s other son is Randy Moon.  You can see a GoFundMe page for Randy Moon at https://www.gofundme.com/qe35gaa

Joshua Conner Moon’s uncle and John Moon’s brother is Jeffery B. Moon.  Jeffery B. Moon’s Facebook profile is at https://www.facebook.com/jeffery.b.moon

Josh Moon’s aunt and John Moon’s sister is Sue Moon Bowie.  Her Facebook account is at https://www.facebook.com/sue.moonbowie

Joshua Moon’s uncle and John Moon’s brother-in-law is James Bowie.

Joshua Conner Moon’s paternal grandfather and John Moon’s father is John Albert Moon.  You can see his obituary at http://www.tljohnsonfuneralservice.com/home/obituary/4059854 and

http://www.legacy.com/obituaries/cecildaily/obituary.aspx?pid=183235766

Josh Moon’s paternal grandmother is Alice Azzouzi.  You can see her Facebook account at https://www.facebook.com/alice.azzouzi

Alice Azzouzi is now married to Steve Azzouzi.

Josh Moon’s cousin and Jeffery B. Moon’s son is Thomas Moon.  You can see his Facebook account at https://www.facebook.com/thomas.moon81

Josh Moon’s cousin and Jeffery B. Moon’s son is Jessica Bunch.  You can see her Facebook account at https://www.facebook.com/hedgy421

Joshua Moon’s nephews and Jessica Bunch’s sons are Xavier Bunch and Sam Bunch.  Jessica Bunch’s former husband is Mark Bunch (https://www.facebook.com/mark.bunch.33) who is now engaged to Pamela Horton.

Josh Moon’s uncle is Bill Moon.  You can see his Facebook account at https://www.facebook.com/Blackfoot1950

Josh Moon’s aunt and Bill Moon’s wife is Stephanie Moon.  Her Facebook profile is at https://www.facebook.com/blackfootsbabe1970

Joshua Moon’s uncle and John Moon’s cousin is David Moon.  His Facebook profile is at https://www.facebook.com/david.moon.18488

Josh Moon’s cousin and John Moon’s niece is Jackie Moon.  Her Facebook profile is at https://www.facebook.com/jackie.moon.165

Another relative of Joshua Moon is Krista Moon.  Her Facebook profile is at https://www.facebook.com/KristaMoon1973

Another relative of Josh Moon is Jonathan Moon.  His Facebook profile is at https://www.facebook.com/jonathan.moon.712

Another relative of Joshua Conner Moon is Brenda Moon.  His Facebook profile is at https://www.facebook.com/brenda.moon.790
Another relative of Joshua Conner Moon is Tessie Potter Marler.  Her Facebook profile is at https://www.facebook.com/tessie.marler

Another relative of Josh Moon is Raymond Potter.  His Facebook profile is at https://www.facebook.com/raymond.potter.96

Other relatives of Joshua Moon and Candice Lynn Potter are Anthony S. Potter.  See http://publicrecords.directory/profiles/candice-potter.6435781.html
and

https://www.instantcheckmate.com/people/candice-potter/

You can reach another relative of Joshua Conner Moon at

Kiwi Farms former co-administrator Dynastia is Matthew D. Craig at [Redacted].

Matthew Craig’s brother is James Craig at [Redacted].  His LinkedIn profile is at https://www.linkedin.com/in/james-craig-961256

Matthew Craig’s father is David Craig at [Redacted].

Matthew Craig’s mother is Cheryl Craig at [Redacted].

This is the Craig family company:

Cogs Solutions Pty Ltd
Po Box 220
Cremorne, NSW 2090, Australia
Phone: 299531491
Cogs Solutions Pty Ltd is a privately held company in Cremorne, NSW and is a Single Location business.
Categorized under Computer Programming Services.
Contact
Cogs Solutions Pty Ltd
Phone: 299531491
Name: David Craig
Job Title: Director

We call upon family members and relatives of cyberbullies on Kiwi Farms to take whatever actions they can to stop the cyberbullies on Kiwi Farms.

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End Kiwifarms Now

A few weeks back I was locked out of my Twitter account for suicidal ideation. I suspected this was the work of nazi incels who’d been monitoring my every move on social media and the resulting misery was compounded by the sense Twitter was using its safety guidelines to further victimise targets of far right extremists. It was happily enabling them, but to be fair, it always has.

Chloe Sagal, a young trans woman from Portland Oregon was hounded by the same people who doxed me. She had been stalked mercilessly, her life scrutinised and twisted beyond the pale, just like mine. Described as ‘brilliant but tortured’ by her friends she was an activist, a force for change but sadly the real life demons that haunted her succeeded in their campaign to kill her spirit and end her life. She wrote in her suicide note:

“My death cannot be silent. It has to be loud and political. My entire life, my experience, my education has led up to this moment. I can only expect trauma and death from my existence.”

This resonates. What must it take to feel so isolated, so alone and battered by the tide of unending misery the only solution is a violent death? It’s a thought that often keeps me awake. Yet even in the depths of my own despair I cannot fathom the level of anguish and sheer numbness that would lead me to self immolation.

Kiwifarms get off on the suffering of others. They target the people no one else cares about and that’s why they’ve been around since 2014, the year I had my first run in with them, and as it turns out Chloe did too. 4 years of nazi incels being allowed to network and organise, connecting fascists from the Americas to Australia. I reported them to the police in 2014 and regretted it. The cops didn’t care, they said I should log off and warned me for using a feminist slogan. How will they now answer for the murders and suicides committed by the same fascist rapists targeting me and Chloe and about another 1500 individuals, selected for their vulnerability to mental illness?

How many people need to die for these sadistic sons of bitches to be brought to heel? It was barely a week ago we heard about Rizzydraws, a stranger from Indonesia who was outed as gay by KF to the homophobic Indonesian authorities which led to him taking his own life. Kiwifarms were gleefully celebrating this all over Twitter. They blamed others for Rizzydraws suicide. Similarly in the wake of Chloe’s passing, kiwifarms were on Twitter apportioning blame to other trans women. It’s another one of their tactics, to pour salt into the wounds of grieving friends of their victims, like the sadistic savages they are. Julie Terryberry was just 18 and they cheered her death without a single paranoid thought that someone might take serious issue with it and come for them. They have acted with impunity and they’ve been allowed to. We tried to tell the authorities, we were victimised again. In those moments the cops and kiwifarms were on the same side.

They can’t afford to ignore it anymore, the death toll is rising. If only Chloe hadn’t felt so isolated, so alone and unheard she felt her most valid contribution would come from her dying. I wish I didn’t feel the same way.

Update: I’ve been informed Rizzy has recovered from their suicide attempt. Sending best wishes, sorry you were ever in that position.

Holding Nazi Collaborators to Account

As you know, Nazis have made several attempts to dox me these past few weeks. They have included my personal information, forcing me to come out with my real name and when that didn’t provoke the response they wanted, they went after my family, many of whom don’t even have social media. They’re currently in control of a comrade’s Twitter account, that they’ve hacked, which I’ve reported and blocked. This is all in an attempt to silence and isolate me.

Kiwifarms has so far been implicated in at least two murders. ‘Joshua Moon’ the administrator denies any involvement but it was partly his rants threatening mass murder that inspired William Atchison to murder two people before turning the gun on himself, just as police stormed the building. It is with this in mind that I emailed the company hosting the site @versaweb to report abuse. It was a Saturday so I figured I would wait until the end of the next working day before I raised concerns regarding their inaction. On May 26th I tweeted them, inquiring why they had not acknowledged my email and encouraged my followers to do the same but despite this, they remained silent. Throughout the course of this past week they have ignored various attempts to engage them, but yesterday, Thursday 31st May I noticed they had a picture of their accounts assistant. Finally, a human face. Someone real to hold accountable.

natacc

I clicked on the website link in their Twitter bio and found more faces.

meetthenazis

I was offline for a short while but when I went to access Twitter via my phone I was suddenly prompted for my password. Now if I didn’t have a healthy distrust for Twitter and the way they enable nazis and their numerous attempts to fish for my identifying information every time I’m locked out, I might have inputted it. Luckily I was so put out by this I scanned the screen for more information, some clue as to why they’d had the audacity to spring this on me and I noticed an ‘ignore’ option in the corner. It took me straight through to my Twitter account. Alarms bells blaring I asked my followers what it meant when this happened and was advised that it was a phishing attempt, someone was trying to hack my account. Out of curiosity I opened my internet browser and saw this.

..Had Versaweb just tried to phish my Twitter password? To what end? I managed to avoid being hacked but my comrade didn’t. There are nazis on his Twitter account currently.

Twitter seem to be taking their sorry ass time about it. A number of us have reported the account has been hacked and also various tweets that most definitely violate their terms of service but it doesn’t seemed to have alerted them.

Reading about the incel who murdered two with a view to many more I can’t help but balk at the statement from New Mexico law enforcement:

“It’s a shame he wasn’t on our radar,” San Juan County Sheriff Ken Christesen told Fox News last week. “I don’t think he had anything so much as a traffic ticket.”

And yet online, the 21-year-old New Mexico resident lived a prolific life as a white supremacist, pro-Trump meme peddler who was most known for his obsession with school shooters. For a half-decade, Atchison spent most of his days online, repeatedly posting threats of violence and cries for help.

Why has the nazi problem been allowed to spin so far out of control? Why hasn’t anyone listened to their victims? This isn’t my first run in with kiwifarms, nor any other chapter of incels, self confessed rapists, racists and paedosadists, there are many mutations of the ‘chans’ that plagued us 4-5 years ago. We reported it then and we were told to log off. We were told by the authorities they could not prove we were distressed or intimidated by nazis threatening to rape and kill us because we talked back. They’ve been allowed to propagate, organise and galvanise themselves. Where is the authority?

No one can say at this stage they ‘didn’t know’. In the aftermath of genocides this is the coward’s lament. Everyone knows nazis are here. Everyone knows they want to force women into having sex.

What are we going to do about it?

Fuck Twitter to Death

I’ve been locked out of my account for tweeting this

Someone, probably a Nazi virgin, reported my tweet

The irony of punishing someone for alleged suicidal ideation is flabbergasting. Twitter is happy to keep Nazi incels like @NZealandCaesar online but don’t complain about not getting adequate support in the fight against Nazis. Don’t feel hopeless or express existential angst arising in response to the problem of Nazis.

They want me to input my phone number so they can associate my account with identifiable information. I don’t think I’m going to do that. Twitter Nazis have assisted incels today, they’ve played their sick little Nazi games and they’ve won.

I’m still reporting them to the police. Still taking a lawyer with me. Still gonna see how I can make GDPR live up to its hype. The fight against Nazis only intensified.

Neutralising The Nazi Incel Threat

For more than a week, Nazi Incels (proud white supremacists who can’t seem to get laid) have been stalking my social media profiles, trawling for information that will reveal my location for the purpose of racist and sexual violence.

incel threat

That threat came fairly early on. They had hoped that it would scare me into closing/locking down my accounts because the intention is to silence women, especially of colour, because nazis don’t like it when women speak back, never mind minorities. I stopped reading it after a while, there are only so many threats one’s brain can process without feeling profoundly disturbed.

This is the admin of the site, allegedly. jm-e1527175427625.png

An anonymous account sent me this information. It could be entirely true or a ruse to get us looking in the wrong direction.

 

Kiwifarms had originally targeted me back in 2016 when a member of their forum, Mark Sabine, a lecturer at Nottingham University set up a thread in a similar vein. For reasons unbeknownst to me at the time, Sabine deleted the thread and offered an unreserved apology. I was taken aback, I hadn’t expected it to be quite so easy.

ms1

I couldn’t understand why a troll would use their real name for a start. I’m still not convinced it’s the real Mark Sabine but it should be easy enough to ascertain with a simple email. Mark supposedly teaches queer culture yet frequents a site set up to target queer people. I guess he didn’t think anyone would fight back?

By now we all know what a nazi incel is. For those who need clarification, a nazi incel is a white supremacist who is ‘involuntarily celibate’ meaning no one will have sex with them. Instead of questioning why this might be and making an effort to better themselves they’re weaponising it. Far from being ashamed by this, they are proudly stating the case for forced marriage and promising sex abuse if this demand is not met. Their self proclaimed messiah, another supposedly educated man, Jordan Peterson with his fetish for crustacean porn has been attempting to intellectualise sex abuse with pseudo evolutionary pop psychology that has been debunked all over the internet but it doesn’t seem to have bothered them in the slightest. Imagine if non white men had made a similar statement. Imagine if the asian grooming gangs had turned around and said they were entitled to violate bodies at will and they were not sorry and they would do it again. Imagine the outrage.

Sarah Champion, disgraced Labour MP who resigned as shadow equalities minister following her entirely racist article regarding grooming gangs is awkwardly silent on the growing threat of white supremacist rapists who are emboldened by the authorities’ impasse on the single biggest threat facing women and various other marginalised groups. Selective outrage with regards to sex abusers enables rapists because racism hurts all victims of sex abuse, even white ones.

The internet is heaving with articles alerting us to the dangers of incels and the forums they have set up to avoid accountability.

The internet is enabling a community of men who want to kill women. 

‘Incel Rebellion’

The Official ‘an incel murdered somebody’ thread – Reddit

Hosts like Versaweb have been tripping over themselves to afford nazi incels anonymity when mainstream organisations have been forced to comply with their own community guidelines and take down offending posts. Versaweb  host the nazi site ‘Kiwifarms’ and as yet have failed to respond to correspondence informing them they are enabling abuse. Their silence translates as unequivocal support for nazis and the abuse they mete out to often vulnerable and marginalised targets. The collaborators and enablers, the sympathisers, what are they if not nazis themselves?

On the 25th May GDPR means organisations will need our explicit consent before sharing our data. For months now I’ve been inundated with emails begging to be allowed to continue sending me bumf I have tried to opt out of numerous times over the years. It seems to me they’re really desperate to get my permission and yet I am not confident this will have any effect on nazis stalking and harassing women on the internet. Mostly because the authorities have failed to hold anyone to account for the multiple threats to rape and kill me. However I am in the process of compiling evidence for the police, yet again. Because people have been murdered by nazis and we can shame them into action, even if they don’t personally care.

I have a group of white professionals (mostly male), some with legal backgrounds, prepared to accompany me to the local police station. It’s easy enough to fob off minorities, especially when they have mental health issues and can be harangued into breaking down and disengaging, but white people, white middle aged men, well they know their rights and they’re not averse to demanding them.

Last time I reported nazi incels to the police, in 2014, they said that they could not prove in a court of law that I was distressed or intimidated by the numerous threats to slit me from ear to ear or the images depicting rape followed by promises of the same. They went on to warn me I could be prosecuted for my use of the phrase ‘kill all men’. Well, it’s been a few years since I said those words, once I’d been reminded that my speech was not free. I haven’t responded to many threads promising violence, or the stalking and harassment of my friends and family, many of whom have deleted their online profiles. I have been a good little victim. Let’s see where that gets me.

(PS: The nazis would have had a harder job of tracking me down were it not for the abusive ex partner (also journalist) Shihab Salim Joi outing my full name a coupla years ago in a bid to slander me for exposing him as a domestically and sexually violent abuser. He set up a profile on Twitter which was eventually taken down for impersonation but not before the damage was done. Well done Shihab, for enabling nazis *slow clap* As a father of two daughters yourself, I’m sure you’re pleased with your work. All hail the entitled patriarchy, whether brown or white, they just want the freedom to abuse women and shut them up just because they can. This is usually where I say my favourite phrase but as I am censored you’ll have to imagine it instead)

If you have any information that might help, please contact me on Twitter or via the comments below.

Punish a Muslim Day is Cancelled

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You may or may not have heard about the threatening letters sent to Muslim MPs and homes across the UK calling for a day of violent attacks against Muslims. The letters, entitled ‘Punish a Muslim Day’, feature a table awarding points for violent acts such as verbally abusing a Muslim for 10 points to butchering a Muslim for 500. It goes without saying many people are feeling scared and unsure of what to do or who to turn to.

The authorities are aware of the threat and are said to be investigating but let’s be honest, can we really trust the authorities to have our back? Organisations like Tell Mama have made us aware of a whatsapp message doing the rounds which is advising Muslims to stay at home on April 3rd, the date given by the perpetrators for their hateful day of action. However Tell Mama are suggesting we treat it just like any other day, and not succumb to the fear mongering, as though we have a choice.

Just recently Mark Rowley the former assistant Met commissioner warned that National Action was proving to be an organised threat of which the likes have never been seen before and the public should be ‘gravely concerned’. He said this shortly before stepping down from his role in counter terrorism policing. This certainly fits their MO. National Action, a hate group proscribed in December of last year, are the first far right extremist group to have been banned under terror legislation. Far right white supremacist groups account for 1/3 of all the case work undertaken by the counter terrorism unit. Do we really feel safe enough to keep calm and carry on in the face of such a threat? It’s easy enough to advise people to rise above the violence promised to them if you personally feel safe under the state’s watchful eye but for many of us, we have seen firsthand how the state enables threats like these to propagate through their wilful inaction. They actively promote racial discord, citing cultural reasons as an excuse for why they didn’t do their jobs investigating abuse of white working class minors.

I reported racism a few years back and not only did the police deny any laws had been broken they went on to threaten me for my political beliefs. I hadn’t made any direct threats, just used a vague generalised statement said by many thousands of women before me, but they decided it negated the many racialised threats to kill and rape made against me. I am one of countless victims of police negligence, they are not my saviours, never mind in matters of racialised violence. It is irresponsible for any organisation to advise marginalised folk to ignore their gut instincts to protect themselves and their loved ones and throw themselves out there. These are our lives at stake, we have no sense of English superiority to bolster our confidence in the state. We aren’t here for the blitz spirit. We can’t keep calm and carry on when disgusting white males sexually assault Muslim looking women in the streets. We shouldn’t have to rise above the abuse meted out to our children. I am not too proud to admit I am frightened for my life, I’ve been like this for years but the fear has escalated because I’m worried for my neighbours, my community, people I’ve never met before.

I am forced to think of Bosnia, the Rohingya, Muslims who’ve been systematically targeted and killed by organised militias with very little intervention by the state, because the state arms them and lets them organise but keeps a safe enough distance so as to deny any culpability when it is all done. Why hasn’t the state called Cobra? Imagine if white people were put at risk in this way? We are not just Muslims, we are British citizens, we pay our taxes and yet..

Until the authorities; the police, the state, make a point of condemning white supremacy and the enablers, the Farages and Hopkins, the lefties and liberals, this looming threat will consume us. Until they make a stand, we can only do our best to protect ourselves. Tell your loved ones that fascism isn’t dead, whatever the liberals might say. Trust your gut not theirs. Stay at home on April 3rd and remain vigilant. Doing your job, making money, none of that means anything if you’re dead or disfigured for life.

Britain’s Rejects

My 72 year old immigrant grandmother died in 2002, prompting a rushed visit to Pakistan. She had specified her wishes to be repatriated to her final resting place when the time came. Growing up we’d always objected to their pipe dream plans to show us the motherland, even going so far as likening it to death, given that we were never short of a cautionary tale or two of what could go wrong if they were not truthful of their intentions. There was always talk of so and so’s kid who’d gone off the rails so the folks took them ‘back home’ to straighten them out. This usually meant a forced marriage but there was always the worry you’d never return.

For 20 years I’d ignored their pleas to at least give them a chance and see what they had built with their own hands, for us, so that we had roots and a place we could always call home. My gran, or dhaadhi as we called her, would look at us in disbelief and shake her head, unsure of how else to sell it to us; the stories she’d tell of exotic fruits abundant in the courtyard, trees grown especially for us, her face wrinkled up in a smile as she recalled the exceptional quality of, as she put it, the juiciest mangoes on God’s green earth and other fruits I don’t know the English word for.

Whilst I love listening to her and seeing her clear delight I wasn’t convinced. I considered myself British, English even, and harboured an unhealthy self hate; I wasn’t above sneering at Pakis. Eager to set myself apart I believed the things white people said about Pakistan and Pakistanis and asserted my Britishness whenever it was required of me. I do cringe whenever I think back to that mindset. I think about the sort of white person who’d get off on hearing my disgust for people like me, the kind to collect tokens and play brown people off each other, dividing Muslims and Hindus for example and profiting off the misery that inevitably follows. Divide rule and conquer works to this day.

It didn’t matter when she died though, I suddenly felt I owed her a trip. Almost immediately I was consumed with guilt that I hadn’t honoured this wish of hers whilst she had been alive but I hoped she knew I was with her for her final journey. Barely six hours after she took her last breath we (my twin, dad, aunt and I) were in business class on a PIA flight bound for Islamabad. It was the first time I’d ever flown and my nerves were shot, I’d barely slept or processed what had happened but the hot cloths and silver service made up for the turbulence a little bit. My dad even let twin and I smoke a cigarette! It was that kind of a day, normal programming abandoned, venturing into the unknown out of a sense of duty and family pride. I tried not to think of her, alone, entombed in a wooden box, along with the rest of the cargo.

We landed at Islamabad airport at 6am. I was hit by the heat, as if I’d walked into a wall of hot air and it would suffocate me, upon exiting the plane. The sun hadn’t been up long but it was already 27 degrees. My thoughts went to my gran and the effect these conditions would have on her lifeless body. We waited for her coffin to be released and clung to each other through the chaos and din of the arrivals lounge, we weren’t in Kansas anymore. Random strange men pawed at our luggage offering to carry it, not being entirely forthcoming about the tip they expected for this service. It smelt funny, and the people were scary, staring at us as if we’d fallen from the sky. An uncle herded us out of the terminal and explained we looked different to regular Pakistanis and they were probably trying to figure out if we were worth anything.

It didn’t feel like a homecoming but the worst day of my life and the natives weren’t exactly helping. I didn’t want my worst fears to be confirmed, that we were easy pickings and could be disappeared, never to return. Dad’s cousin thought we were hilarious, batting furiously at the flies that seemed to throng the air, shrieking at the various creepy critters that had dared to greet us. We were a novelty. Fragile. Typical of desis who’d lost their way. A highly amusing form of entertainment for the locals.

The funeral was as expected; the outpouring of grief par the course but I had never imagined my dear gran knew so many people. I was bewildered by the number of women sat around smoking, a practice that was almost entirely gendered amongst the older generations in Britain. I only ever knew one lady smoker, my granddad’s sister in law and she had a free pass on account of her mental status. Here it just seemed to be a way of life, the chilum, similar to a shisha, was a permanent fixture. Granted they weren’t holding penis shaped cigarettes as they do in the west (cigarettes were originally marketed to women on the basis that women envied the penis and smoking would achieve equality or something) but this was really a sight to behold for someone who’d been brought up in a strict household where women most definitely did not smoke. I was also surprised at the relative freedom my girl cousins had with regards to their personal grooming. We’d been forced to keep our hair long, our eyebrows natural and our sleeves below the elbow and yet my cousins had no such restrictions. It’s when I first started to believe our grandparents were trying to preserve something of our culture in the west, that we were a snapshot frozen in time of an era pre colonialism whereas the rest of the world had just moved on.

They referred to us as the English princesses, for being so vulnerable to the elements. In our hurry to bury dhaadhi according to Islamic law within 24 hours, we’d had to forgo the usual preparations; shots for foreign diseases and the like. Within 48 hours we were struck with a mystery bug that was determined to shoot itself out of both ends and stifling temperatures in the mid 50s weren’t helping the situation, especially when the electricity was guaranteed to give out at least twice a day. I had never felt more miserable in my life and decided there was nothing else for it, we had to go home. Everyone else had other ideas though; we hadn’t given it a chance, we needed to eat more and think about getting better, the airline wouldn’t carry us if we were too sick and for a brief time I was petrified they weren’t going to let us leave at all. Maybe this had been the plan all along.

Fortunately the bug seemed to attack in waves and a day later our uncle took us shopping, we hadn’t come with very much stuff, in my case I didn’t even own more than one pair of salwar kameez. All was going well until we actually spoke to the vendors and my uncle clocked they were hiking up the prices. He said if we liked the look of anything to point at it rather than say anything aloud. I was confused, we’d been conversing in Punjabi but apparently even that sounded different to them and English people could afford to pay more.

I felt personally attacked, not gonna lie. I didn’t belong here, as people were keen to point out with every interaction. I didn’t like the heat, I didn’t like the food, or the people even, they were rude and looked at me the way closeted racists did in England. I didn’t feel safe. All I wanted was a cheese and tomato sandwich and my bed, at home in rainy blighty. I asked for fries on one occasion, thinking there isn’t a place in the world you can’t get fries, and bawled my eyes out when they arrived dusted with chilli powder. In the end, I shook off as much of it as I could and sliced up some tomato and onion for the weirdest chip butty ever. I dreamed of Nandos. I vowed to kiss the ground when I got home and never complain about the cold ever again (delirious or delusional, you decide) and made it my mission to pester the folks at all times, ET had to go home. Eventually, 10 days after the ordeal began we boarded a flight home, excited like you wouldn’t believe I made lists in my head of everything I would drink and eat.

I wasn’t sorry to say goodbye to my dysfunctional country of origin, but I did think of what it might be like, 50 years on. There’s no doubting Pakistan is a hellhole for many reasons but it was made this way. It was a consolation prize given to the victims of the British empire, those who once considered themselves Indian, those of my grandparents generation who would’ve been young children at the time of partition. They’ve seen horrors we can only imagine. They are the product of such horrors. To show humanity you must be shown it and Pakistanis are amongst some of the first to be dehumanised. They are the losers of the empire and all the alliances that followed, between extremists bound by mutual desires for power and control and must be mocked and denigrated in order to maintain the global hierarchy. They are Muslims and they were once proud rulers of India, loved by moderates of all faiths. Their fall from grace is the only lasting legacy for young Pakistan, it simply hasn’t had enough time to recuperate.

Our grandparents were refugees of a kind, the land they occupied was destroyed by the British who busted a dam, destroying everything. Britain promised those people refuge from a disaster of their own creation and so they came, naive to the racism that awaited them. They never accepted they were British, my grandparent’s generations, their hearts were too broken, unable to mend. Such is the life of the stateless citizen. I had tricked myself into believing I belonged in the UK but 9/11 changed all of that. The unspoken hate bubbled to the surface and became impossible to ignore. It’s gotten exponentially worse in recent years, there’s no denying it now. They say we don’t integrate but when we do they want to ban us from getting involved, just look at the furore over the Xmas ads, life is impossible for those of us who do not belong anywhere.

There’s no love lost between me and centrist Sadiq Khan but I felt for him today. We don’t belong anywhere, we only have an idea of what it is to belong somewhere and our place of birth is the nearest we can get to realising it, despite what the racists might say.