A few weeks back I was locked out of my Twitter account for suicidal ideation. I suspected this was the work of nazi incels who’d been monitoring my every move on social media and the resulting misery was compounded by the sense Twitter was using its safety guidelines to further victimise targets of far right extremists. It was happily enabling them, but to be fair, it always has.
Chloe Sagal, a young trans woman from Portland Oregon was hounded by the same people who doxed me. She had been stalked mercilessly, her life scrutinised and twisted beyond the pale, just like mine. Described as ‘brilliant but tortured’ by her friends she was an activist, a force for change but sadly the real life demons that haunted her succeeded in their campaign to kill her spirit and end her life. She wrote in her suicide note:
“My death cannot be silent. It has to be loud and political. My entire life, my experience, my education has led up to this moment. I can only expect trauma and death from my existence.”
This resonates. What must it take to feel so isolated, so alone and battered by the tide of unending misery the only solution is a violent death? It’s a thought that often keeps me awake. Yet even in the depths of my own despair I cannot fathom the level of anguish and sheer numbness that would lead me to self immolation.
Kiwifarms get off on the suffering of others. They target the people no one else cares about and that’s why they’ve been around since 2014, the year I had my first run in with them, and as it turns out Chloe did too. 4 years of nazi incels being allowed to network and organise, connecting fascists from the Americas to Australia. I reported them to the police in 2014 and regretted it. The cops didn’t care, they said I should log off and warned me for using a feminist slogan. How will they now answer for the murders and suicides committed by the same fascist rapists targeting me and Chloe and about another 1500 individuals, selected for their vulnerability to mental illness?
How many people need to die for these sadistic sons of bitches to be brought to heel? It was barely a week ago we heard about Rizzydraws, a stranger from Indonesia who was outed as gay by KF to the homophobic Indonesian authorities which led to him taking his own life. Kiwifarms were gleefully celebrating this all over Twitter. They blamed others for Rizzydraws suicide. Similarly in the wake of Chloe’s passing, kiwifarms were on Twitter apportioning blame to other trans women. It’s another one of their tactics, to pour salt into the wounds of grieving friends of their victims, like the sadistic savages they are. Julie Terryberry was just 18 and they cheered her death without a single paranoid thought that someone might take serious issue with it and come for them. They have acted with impunity and they’ve been allowed to. We tried to tell the authorities, we were victimised again. In those moments the cops and kiwifarms were on the same side.
They can’t afford to ignore it anymore, the death toll is rising. If only Chloe hadn’t felt so isolated, so alone and unheard she felt her most valid contribution would come from her dying. I wish I didn’t feel the same way.
Update: I’ve been informed Rizzy has recovered from their suicide attempt. Sending best wishes, sorry you were ever in that position.